How You Love Me Now;;Ella;;56

Time went by. We lost Kris, Dustin, Adam, Antti, Andrew, Brent Sopel, Colin Frasier, and Eager, but got new people that I had never even heard of in my life. It was the first preseason game against Pittsburgh, and we all knew shit was about to go down between Sidney and Kanner. 


I walked into the locker room and saw Brigid with Jonny. It brought me back to last preseason, the fight between Kris and Johnny. I shake the memory off and go by Sharpie, who looked like a lost puppy without Adam. I take a seat next to him and his wife, Ashlynn. They both look at me as I see Brent and Ally walk in. "You okay?" Sharpie asks me. I don't say anything at first, because the flash backs are playing in my head now.


If you were sorry Kris, if you were really sorry...


"Earth to Antonella," Ashlynn says, waving her hand infront of my face.
"Oh sorry, yeah I'm fine," I lie.
"Liar liar pants on fire," Sharpie murmurs as Ally and Brent join us.
"Who invited the bimbo?" Brent asks.
"Apparently Jonny did," I reply, having a staring contest with Brigid.
"Ella, don't even look at her, your just giving her the satisfaction she wants," Brent tells me.
"I wish I could kill her."
"Ella stop talking like that," Sharpie tells me.


Brigid gets up from where she was sitting and comes directly at me. I stand up, as Sharpie is trying to hold me down. This was going to be real interesting. I was really thinking of last preseason and the exact words that were thrown between Jonathan and Kris.

"Playing truth or dare doesn't consider making the first move."

"Just quit while you're ahead...or, even better, take your truck on a roadtrip again, this time, go home and cry to mommy and daddy cry baby....that's after you play hockey like a girl."

"If I played hockey like a girl, I wouldn't have the "C" on my chest assfuck."

"Okay cunt."

"I'm a cunt? Last time I checked, I had a penis and you had a vagina!"

"OKAY THATS IT!"

It was at that moment I knew Brigid and I were going to be going at it with one another. Sharpie finally lets go of my hand and I'm standing face to face with Brigid. We're looking directly at eachother, I don't say anything, but she clearly makes the first move. "I thought it was alittle obvious that you weren't want here," she sneers at me.

"Theres people in this room who want me here you bimbo."

"Ella stop while your ahead," Ally murmurs.

"Ella, just pack up and leave this area, go be a hot mess somewhere else."

"Don't start this Brigid."

"Drugs, alcohol..."

"THATS IT!"

I lung myself at Brigid and knock her down. I throw punches at her as she flips me over and staddles me while punching me. Someone grabs hold of her and someone helps me up. I look at Johnny and shake my head as I leave the locker room.

After getting cleaned up, I meet Ally, Christina, and Stephanie at our seats as the game starts. Sidney is going after Patrick like there is no tomorrow. We all know why, the baby. It was at the point where he slashed Patrick and Patrick was pissed. He pushed him. Sidney pushed back. Words were flown toward one another. The gloves flew off. The punches were thrown. It was the start to the battle that would last until October.

The game ends and I'm leaving to go to my car. "Ella wait!" I hear someone yell. I don't turn around but I feel someone grab my hand. I turn and see Jonny, staring at me. "Can we please talk?" he asks me. I shake my head and try to leave, but his grip on me is tighter than ever. 

"Go back to your bitch of a girlfriend."

"Ella, listen she had no right to say what she said to you. I just want to be friends with you Ella."

"The last time we tried that we both got hurt because of her."

"Ella.."

"Jonny, let me ask you a question."

"Okay..."

"Tell me now, how you love me now?"

"What?"

"You heard correctly. Now answer me."

Theres a long pause as Jonny places his hands in his pockets. I look around, no one is out here. The last thing I need right now is the Chicago Tribune photographing us two. He looks directly at me and shakes his head. "I don't know Ella...I'll be honest though...I still care about you and love you."

"There is no more you and I Jonny."

With that I left, only to get a phone call. It was from Dad. I pick up the phone and place it to my ears before putting the key into the ignition. I'm so pissed about Jonny right now I could kick my windshield. "Dad, I'm on my way home whats up?"

"Ella, get to your moms house right now."

"Dad, is everything okay?"

"Ella...mom was found dead."

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