"Oh my God..."
"She looks great Nik."
"She's beautiful..."
I tell Jonny as we all watch everyone stand to watch Christina walk down the aisle with her dad. She stops and her dad lifts the vail. I see her mouth "I love you dad" and kiss her dads cheek. Ella comes and grabs her bouquet and helps her up on a step. Christina is standing across from me now and I'm almost positive a little tear is rolling down my cheek. The priest begins to talk then.
"We are gathered here today to witness the the wedding of this lovely couple. Niklas Hjalmarsson and Christina Helena Dimitris," he begins as I see Stephanie wink at someone. At first, I don't know who she is winking too but I hear someone laugh alittle. It's Brent. I knew they were up to something, and they were going to be dead where they were standing. "If anyone does not agree with this marriage, speak now--"
"I OBJECT!" Stephanie and Brent yell.
"Or forever hold your piece."
I'm looking at Stephanie now, and she's laughing in hysterics with Brent. "Sorry, we had to bring some amusement," she says through laughter as Christina is laughing now. "Nik, it's all out of love," Brent tells me as I turn and give him the death glare.
"Continue with the wedding," Brent tells the priest.
"I shall...this couple, will be blessed by the holy water, this couple will now share their vows. Niklas, do you take Christina to be your wife, to love and to hold, to be there when times get rough, in sickness and health, until death do you part?"
"I do," I flat out say.
"Christina, do you take Niklas to be your husband, to love and to hold, to be there when times get rough, in sickness and health, til death do you part?"
"I do," she smiles.
"Boy, bring the rings please. Nik, repeat after me, I Niklas Hjalmarsson."
"I Niklas Hjalmarsson.."
"Take Christina Helena Dimitris to be my wife."
"Take Christina Helena Dimitris to be my wife."
"I promise I will be there for her."
"I promise I will be there for her."
"When the times get rough."
"When the times get rough."
"And I will always love you, no matter how hard times get."
"And I will always love you, no matter how hard times get."
"With this ring, I'll show you my never ending love for you."
"With this ring, I'll show my never ending love for you."
I slip the ring on and Christina is bassically repeating everything I just said. I watch her slip the ring on my finger as the priest clears his thoart. "Is there anyone who has anything to say before we move on? This is an interesting group here in this church?"
"BRENT! YOU BETTER TAKE ME DOWN TO THE LITTLE WHITE CHURCH SOON!" Ally yelled.
"Well..with no further instructions, it is my duty to say these words...you may now kiss the bride."
I place my hands on Christinas cheeks and we take our first as a married couple. The music plays again and she grabs here bouquet from Ella. We then exit the church but then take wedding photos with everyone in the church and such. I look over at Christina, whos beaming at me. Then I make my eyes turn to Jonny and Ella, who are putting fake smiles on for the camera. Jonny winks at me and Christina. I shake my head.
This was going to be a long, interesting night.
part three will be longer. sorry its taking me so long to update, schools been sucking the life out of me
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Wedding Day;;Ella;;63 Pt 1
It's six in the morning and all the bridesmaids and moms are gathered in the kitchen of the Dimitri's house. Christina's mom made a coffee run for everyone this morning and now I was sitting with Stephanie and Ally as Christina was getting her hair and make up done at once, while Stephanie was explaining to the hair dresser that she wanted a low bun but high enough so you could see the back of her dress, Ally was getting hair make up done before hair, and I was explaining to the hair dresser that I just wanted a simple bun with my bangs out and swept to the side. She then asked for a picture of the man I was standing up with so I showed her Jonny. She shakes her head.
"He's too cute, no bun for you. We do low side pony tail and sidebangs french braid."
She begins braiding my hair and I look at my make up in the mirror. To be quite honest, the red lip stick and the gold eye shadow make me look like a dirty hooker. I look at Ally, who then bursts into laughter. "Shut the hell up, I look like a hooker!" I tell her.
"No, you look like a prostitute Sean Avery would call."
"Oh you suck!"
"Awe you look pretty! You're hair is going to look nice!"
Christina says taking a seat next to me. Her hair is on her half up, half down curly head and she's prancing around in a Juicy Couture jump suit. I then take a sit of my coffee as I see a tear roll down her eye. "Girls...do I look ugly!?" She cries. This is when I knew she was nervous to get married. I pat her knee.
"No Christina, you do not look ugly."
"Going to the chapel and your...gonna get marrried!" Stephanie begins to sing.
"Goin' to the chapel and your...gonna get married!" Ally joins!
"Gee, Nik really loves you and you're gonna get married...goin' to the chapel of love!" Stephanie and Ally sing in unison.
"Guys, this isn't father of the bride!" I yell but then join in on the singing as she curls my hair with a curling iron. "No, but you look very beautiful."
"Are you and Jonny going to get back together sometime tonight?"
Did she really have to ask this? Everyone turns to stare at me now. I roll my eyes. Who knows what would happen tonight. Maybe we would, maybe we won't. As of right now, it was time to admit that I still loved him. "I don't know guys, I do love him, I'll give you that."
"Trust us Ella, we know!"
"Guys...will Nik think I look pretty?"
We all turn to see Christina in her wedding dress. She chose a princess ball gown that originally had off the shoulder straps but had the straps removed to make the dress strapless. She looked amazing. I put the vail over her face and smiled as I gave her a hug. "Nik is gonna want to rip that off you in the church," I whisper as she hits my back.
"You dirty free for all," she laughs as I put my dress on. It's a red Marilyn Monroe style dress. Ally's is strapless and Stephanie has a halter style of the dress on. I look at myself in the mirror as I yell, "LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD!"
We all pile into the limo around 8:40 a.m. and start pouring glasses of sparkling champagne. I take a sip of mine as I look out the window. It's Christmas Eve, normally, I'd be sleeping or helping my parents wrap last minute gifts like I did last Christmas. Nope, this year, I was drinking champagne at almost 9 in the morning getting ready for my cousins wedding.
It's 9:40 a.m. and we pull up to St. Mary of the Wood's church in Edgebrook. Christina and her mom go into the fitting room and do final adjustments as people pile in. The ceremony starts at 10 but we had to be lined up by 9:55 and Nik and his mom would walk out at exactly ten. We all sat in the fitting room and before we knew it, it was 9:55.
I walked out and saw Johnny talking to Brent, Sharpie, Patrick, and Nik. He stopped talking and looked at me. I looked at him as Patrick whispered something to him. I walked up to him and fixed his flower on his tuxedo jacket as the boys went to their spots in line. "You look beautiful Ella," he smiled as I smiled back.
"Thanks, you don't look so bad yourself."
"Do you think we can talk later?"
"I'll think about it okay?"
"I can live with that."
It's 10 A.M. now and the door opens as typical wedding music begins to play as Nik and his mom walk out. Next were Alfonso and Kailee, then Olympia and Nat, then Stephanie and Kanner, Ally and Brent, Sharpie and Ashlynn, Nico and Allah for the flower girl and ringer bearer. Jonny looked at me and smiled. "Ready?" He asked me. I locked arms with him and smiled back. We walked down the aisle as oh's and ah's went off as the doors in back of me closed. I missed this so much, I knew what I had to do tonight.
Jonny and I went our separate ways of the church and I winked at Nik, a good luck wink that was. The doors swung open again as everyone stood and here comes the bride began playing. The smile on Niks face grew big. I knew he was happy...
but where was my happy ending?
"He's too cute, no bun for you. We do low side pony tail and sidebangs french braid."
She begins braiding my hair and I look at my make up in the mirror. To be quite honest, the red lip stick and the gold eye shadow make me look like a dirty hooker. I look at Ally, who then bursts into laughter. "Shut the hell up, I look like a hooker!" I tell her.
"No, you look like a prostitute Sean Avery would call."
"Oh you suck!"
"Awe you look pretty! You're hair is going to look nice!"
Christina says taking a seat next to me. Her hair is on her half up, half down curly head and she's prancing around in a Juicy Couture jump suit. I then take a sit of my coffee as I see a tear roll down her eye. "Girls...do I look ugly!?" She cries. This is when I knew she was nervous to get married. I pat her knee.
"No Christina, you do not look ugly."
"Going to the chapel and your...gonna get marrried!" Stephanie begins to sing.
"Goin' to the chapel and your...gonna get married!" Ally joins!
"Gee, Nik really loves you and you're gonna get married...goin' to the chapel of love!" Stephanie and Ally sing in unison.
"Guys, this isn't father of the bride!" I yell but then join in on the singing as she curls my hair with a curling iron. "No, but you look very beautiful."
"Are you and Jonny going to get back together sometime tonight?"
Did she really have to ask this? Everyone turns to stare at me now. I roll my eyes. Who knows what would happen tonight. Maybe we would, maybe we won't. As of right now, it was time to admit that I still loved him. "I don't know guys, I do love him, I'll give you that."
"Trust us Ella, we know!"
"Guys...will Nik think I look pretty?"
We all turn to see Christina in her wedding dress. She chose a princess ball gown that originally had off the shoulder straps but had the straps removed to make the dress strapless. She looked amazing. I put the vail over her face and smiled as I gave her a hug. "Nik is gonna want to rip that off you in the church," I whisper as she hits my back.
"You dirty free for all," she laughs as I put my dress on. It's a red Marilyn Monroe style dress. Ally's is strapless and Stephanie has a halter style of the dress on. I look at myself in the mirror as I yell, "LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD!"
We all pile into the limo around 8:40 a.m. and start pouring glasses of sparkling champagne. I take a sip of mine as I look out the window. It's Christmas Eve, normally, I'd be sleeping or helping my parents wrap last minute gifts like I did last Christmas. Nope, this year, I was drinking champagne at almost 9 in the morning getting ready for my cousins wedding.
It's 9:40 a.m. and we pull up to St. Mary of the Wood's church in Edgebrook. Christina and her mom go into the fitting room and do final adjustments as people pile in. The ceremony starts at 10 but we had to be lined up by 9:55 and Nik and his mom would walk out at exactly ten. We all sat in the fitting room and before we knew it, it was 9:55.
I walked out and saw Johnny talking to Brent, Sharpie, Patrick, and Nik. He stopped talking and looked at me. I looked at him as Patrick whispered something to him. I walked up to him and fixed his flower on his tuxedo jacket as the boys went to their spots in line. "You look beautiful Ella," he smiled as I smiled back.
"Thanks, you don't look so bad yourself."
"Do you think we can talk later?"
"I'll think about it okay?"
"I can live with that."
It's 10 A.M. now and the door opens as typical wedding music begins to play as Nik and his mom walk out. Next were Alfonso and Kailee, then Olympia and Nat, then Stephanie and Kanner, Ally and Brent, Sharpie and Ashlynn, Nico and Allah for the flower girl and ringer bearer. Jonny looked at me and smiled. "Ready?" He asked me. I locked arms with him and smiled back. We walked down the aisle as oh's and ah's went off as the doors in back of me closed. I missed this so much, I knew what I had to do tonight.
Jonny and I went our separate ways of the church and I winked at Nik, a good luck wink that was. The doors swung open again as everyone stood and here comes the bride began playing. The smile on Niks face grew big. I knew he was happy...
but where was my happy ending?
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Rehearsal Dinner;;Ella/Jonny;;62
It was December 23 and everyone was in full panic mode. Ally and I ended up buying a condo by school due to the landlords of our old apartment getting into a fight with our insurance agents. The boys were on top of their game, Stephanie had a "hot after pregnancy" body, and Christinas wedding was tomorrow. We were all running around the week before making sure tuxes and dresses still fit, getting our nails done, booking make up and hair stylists, all the fun stuff.
Stephanies daughter was getting bigger now but was not going to be in attendance to the wedding, so Stephanies Aunt said she'd watch her. The line up for the wedding party was interesting. It consisted of:
Niks little neice Allah and Christinas cousin Nico for the flower girl and ring bear
Alfonso and Niks cousin Kailee
Olympia and Niks brother Nat
Stephanie and Kanner
Sharpie and Ashlynn
Ally and Brent
Jonathan and I
I walk into the church for the rehersal. I take a seat in a pew next to Sharpie and Ashlynn. Ally and Brent join us along with Alfonso, who's sitting on Brent's lap. I really wish he'd get tall, he took after my mom for that. I look up and see Jonathan walk in. I turn away as he sees me. Patrick hits me on the head. "Stop being such a baby Ella," he tells me.
"I'm trying," I say as the rehearsal coordinator walks in with Nik and Christina.
"Alright, everyone in the back, were gonna start this with the groom and his mom then youngest to the oldest, then the flower girl and ring bearter, then the bride and her father. Questions? Lets go!"
We all line up the way she tells us. Nik and his mom go first then everyone else goes. It's mine and Jonny's turn. We walk down without holding hands. This makes the coordinator mad. "STOP STOP STOP! You two look like you hate each other, now link arms!" She yells.
"If you only knew," I murmur linking arms with Jonathan.
I miss this.
My uncle is walking Christina down the isle now. She looks emotionally drained from all the stress of the week before the wedding. The coordinator then goes through what Christina and Nik have to do. We then finish and we all head over to Biaggis Italian Bistro for the rehersal dinner. I walk in with Alfonso and my dad sits with Alfonso, Sharpie, Ashlynn, Brent, Ally, Stephanie, Kanner, and myself. My Thea Helen stands up as a screen comes up. She clings her glass with a spoon.
"Well...with the help of everyone, we've put together this video in honnor of Nik and Christina, so enjoy!"
The video starts out with Christina's baby picture of her and my The Helen. It then rolls to a picture from when Christina and I were two and playing dolls. Then it showed preschool when we made friends with Ally. Then grade school, then a picture at her birthday party of her, Ally, Jon, and I.
I did NOT want to see that.
It keeps going to pictures of us in jr. high, then of her in high school, then pictures of her, Ally, Stephanie, and I in high school. Then her and I when we graduated high school, a picture of her and I drunk at University of Illinois, then it moved on to pictures of Nik from when he was a baby to now. It then it went to pictures of her and Nik together with us all. It showed one of me on Niks back during the Olympic Break when I wasn't moping around about Kris or Jonny where he's sticking his tounge out at the camera and I look terrified in the picture. It then came to one of Christina and I during the Olympics where were hugging and Nik joins the hug. Then it came up.
A picture of Jonny and I kissing with Nik jumping on Johnny with a hockey stick and Christina trying to get in the middle before I left for Italy with the song Wonderwall playing. I was about to lose it but contained myself.
I watch Jonny get up as Nik follows him. Nik stops him and their arguing about something. They then turn to look at me and I see a tear roll down his face. Nik hits Jonny and tells him something as Jonny walks away. If Jonny only knew how the hell I still felt...
--Jonny---
"YOU CANT RUN FROM THIS FOREVER!"
Nik whispers to me as he grabs my arm. I turn to look at him and shake my head. I am by far the biggest dick to ever walk the face of the earth and the pictures that came up proved it. "Nik, I can't get her back, I need to let it go already. We all do," I tell him.
"Stop saying that you dumbshit. She loves you, you love her. We all see it," he tells me.
"I'll never win her back."
"Never say never Jonny."
Were both looking at Ella now and it's then I realize I'm balling my eyes out. I quickly look away as Nik hits me on the head. I begin to walk away as I hear Nik say to me, "Win her back before someone beats you to it." I drive back to my condo and lie in my bed, hoping to God that she'd take me back before it was too late.
Stephanies daughter was getting bigger now but was not going to be in attendance to the wedding, so Stephanies Aunt said she'd watch her. The line up for the wedding party was interesting. It consisted of:
Niks little neice Allah and Christinas cousin Nico for the flower girl and ring bear
Alfonso and Niks cousin Kailee
Olympia and Niks brother Nat
Stephanie and Kanner
Sharpie and Ashlynn
Ally and Brent
Jonathan and I
I walk into the church for the rehersal. I take a seat in a pew next to Sharpie and Ashlynn. Ally and Brent join us along with Alfonso, who's sitting on Brent's lap. I really wish he'd get tall, he took after my mom for that. I look up and see Jonathan walk in. I turn away as he sees me. Patrick hits me on the head. "Stop being such a baby Ella," he tells me.
"I'm trying," I say as the rehearsal coordinator walks in with Nik and Christina.
"Alright, everyone in the back, were gonna start this with the groom and his mom then youngest to the oldest, then the flower girl and ring bearter, then the bride and her father. Questions? Lets go!"
We all line up the way she tells us. Nik and his mom go first then everyone else goes. It's mine and Jonny's turn. We walk down without holding hands. This makes the coordinator mad. "STOP STOP STOP! You two look like you hate each other, now link arms!" She yells.
"If you only knew," I murmur linking arms with Jonathan.
I miss this.
My uncle is walking Christina down the isle now. She looks emotionally drained from all the stress of the week before the wedding. The coordinator then goes through what Christina and Nik have to do. We then finish and we all head over to Biaggis Italian Bistro for the rehersal dinner. I walk in with Alfonso and my dad sits with Alfonso, Sharpie, Ashlynn, Brent, Ally, Stephanie, Kanner, and myself. My Thea Helen stands up as a screen comes up. She clings her glass with a spoon.
"Well...with the help of everyone, we've put together this video in honnor of Nik and Christina, so enjoy!"
The video starts out with Christina's baby picture of her and my The Helen. It then rolls to a picture from when Christina and I were two and playing dolls. Then it showed preschool when we made friends with Ally. Then grade school, then a picture at her birthday party of her, Ally, Jon, and I.
I did NOT want to see that.
It keeps going to pictures of us in jr. high, then of her in high school, then pictures of her, Ally, Stephanie, and I in high school. Then her and I when we graduated high school, a picture of her and I drunk at University of Illinois, then it moved on to pictures of Nik from when he was a baby to now. It then it went to pictures of her and Nik together with us all. It showed one of me on Niks back during the Olympic Break when I wasn't moping around about Kris or Jonny where he's sticking his tounge out at the camera and I look terrified in the picture. It then came to one of Christina and I during the Olympics where were hugging and Nik joins the hug. Then it came up.
A picture of Jonny and I kissing with Nik jumping on Johnny with a hockey stick and Christina trying to get in the middle before I left for Italy with the song Wonderwall playing. I was about to lose it but contained myself.
I watch Jonny get up as Nik follows him. Nik stops him and their arguing about something. They then turn to look at me and I see a tear roll down his face. Nik hits Jonny and tells him something as Jonny walks away. If Jonny only knew how the hell I still felt...
--Jonny---
"YOU CANT RUN FROM THIS FOREVER!"
Nik whispers to me as he grabs my arm. I turn to look at him and shake my head. I am by far the biggest dick to ever walk the face of the earth and the pictures that came up proved it. "Nik, I can't get her back, I need to let it go already. We all do," I tell him.
"Stop saying that you dumbshit. She loves you, you love her. We all see it," he tells me.
"I'll never win her back."
"Never say never Jonny."
Were both looking at Ella now and it's then I realize I'm balling my eyes out. I quickly look away as Nik hits me on the head. I begin to walk away as I hear Nik say to me, "Win her back before someone beats you to it." I drive back to my condo and lie in my bed, hoping to God that she'd take me back before it was too late.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Sophia Lauren Kane;;Ella/Patrick;;61
Saturday October 9, 2010
Blackhawks vs Red Wings
United Center. Chicago, IL
I walk into the locker room with an eight month pregnant Stephanie. The doctor said that she was doing excellent and that the baby was in healthy condition. Quenville called up an extra player incase Stephanie was going to go into labor sometime soon so Patrick could go to the hospital. It was the first home game and we were playing Detroit. I walk over to Kanner with her and sit next to Patrick Sharp. "How are you feeling today?" he asks me as his wife sits next me.
"Just fucken peachy," I murmur. "Please kick some ass tonight."
"Just for you and everyone else."
"Girls we should get to our seats."
We watch the team walk out for warm up. Jonnys the last one out. I grab his arm as the girls leave too. He turns to look at me. A small smile forms to his face as I kiss his cheek. "Good luck," I say as his gives me a tiny hug. "Friends again?" I ask him.
"Definatly," he smiles as he walks away.
The third period is under way. We're leading 2-1 with two goals in the second by Nik and Patrick Sharp. I'm more worried about Stephanie than the game. A weird look forms to her face as she excuses herself to go to the bathroom. Ally looks at her. "Did you wet your pants and why are you....OH MY GOD YOUR WATER BROKE!" Ally yells really loud. I shoot up with Christina as Stephanie grabs her stomach. "ARE YOU OKAY!?" Allys yelling.
"CONTRACTIONS!" She yells as I time the contraction.
"Ten seconds," I tell them, throwing my car keys. "GET HER TO THE HOSPITAL!"
"What about you!?" Christina yells at me.
"I'm gonna get Patrick off the ice! Go!"
I run down to the glass and begin banging on the glass. People were looking as a ref saw me banging on the glass. "STOP THE GAME! STOP THE GAME!" I'm yelling but hes shaking his head no. Was he really going to start this with me? "STOP THE DAMN GAME!" That's when Duncan saw me banging on the glass. He knew what was up. He then pulled a hook on a Red Wing and a time out was called. Kanner saw me yelling, along with Coach Quenville.
"Kanner go change! You're daughters going to be born tonight. Ella, go to the locker room!"
LOYOLA MEDIAL CENTER
MAYWOOD, ILLINOIS
"LETS ALL CONGRATULATE PATRICK KANE, AS HE BECOMES A FATHER TONIGHT!" Our announcer yells as I run to the locker room behind Kanner. We hear the cheers and stomping as he throws his stuff in his bag. He then begins to put his clothes on. I look at him weirdly. He looks at me back. "Dude, are you not going to shower?" I ask him.
"It's either shower and miss my daughter make her entrance to the world, or not shower and see my daughter for the first time. I chose to have her first meet me while I'm drenched in swet."
"Fair enough lets go."
Patrick speeds to Loyola Medical center and we run into the room. Ally and Christina are telling Stephanie to breathe while we run in there. "The whole team is on their way, we won," Kanner tells the two as they wait for them in the waiting room. Patrick grabs her hand as she feels another contraction. A Doctor comes in. "You must be Patrick. I'm Doctor Hillis, I'll be delivering your baby tonight. Stephanie you're ready for an epidural," she tells Stephanie.
I excuse myself and go to the waiting room to see the whole team and their wives and girlfriends there. Troy is the first to speak. "How is she?" He asks me as I tell them she needs an epidural. I excuse myself and decide to go get a coffee. I push the elevator door but it doesn't close. Jonny sneaks his way through. This was going to be loads of fun. The elevator door closes and I don't say anything to Jonny. "You okay?" he asks me.
"I suppose," I reply.
"Liar. You know, your a terrible liar Ella."
The door opens and I walk into the cafe with him stomping behind me. I had a feeling I wasn't going to be getting my coffee. "Ella, you can't avoid me forever," he yells. I stop walking and turn to face him. Did he really have the nerve to say that to me?
"I understand we are bonded forever because of this child, but we are not getting back together."
"I love you Ella, why can't you accept it?"
"I cannot love you Jon?"
"And why not?"
"Because I can't okay!"
"And were back to round three..."
My phone goes off its. Kanner texted me. I look at Jon. I knew for a fact coffee wasn't an option now. "Elevator now," I snap at Jon as he follows me.
"Why?"
To: Ella cell
Come up to room 213 on the second floor. Your god daughter is going to want to meet you now.
--Patrick--
We hold off on the pushing as we wait for Ella and Jonny to get their asses down to the room. I look at Stephanie, who's hand I grab as they position her to get ready to push. I look at her and a tear rolls down my cheeck. "Baby why are you crying?" she asks me as I kiss her lips.
"I'm happy, that's all."
"Alright lets start the pushing," I hear Ella say.
"Alright Stephanie push!" The doctor says as Stephanie's face turns purple. She's pushing hard but Doctor Hillis tells her to stop. She catches her breath. I look at Jonny as I catch him grab Ella's hand. Her facial expression doesn't change but I can tell she's half mad half not mad. "Alright Stephanie push," the Doctor tells her again as she counts to ten. Stephanie stops after ten and breathes.
"You're doing great baby you can do it," I tell her as she squeezes my hand.
"Steph, if you push really hard, we can get the baby out on the next push okay? Now push."
We're all cheering for Steph as she's turning purple again. I then hear it, the prettiest sound ever. A baby cry. The doctor holds the baby and has me cut the ambilicol chord. She then takes the baby and checks on it and wraps the baby up. "Meet you're daughter," she says, handing her to Stephanie. Stephanie's looking at her as I sit on the bed next to her. My daughter is the spitting image of Stephanie. I look at Stephanie now as she says to me, "Pick a name Patrick." I look at the baby and a smile comes to my face as the following words come out as I take my baby,
"Hi Sophia Lauren Kane, I'm you're daddy. I've waited nine long months to meet you, and now you're here! I know I just met you but I know I love you so so much."
And then, I kiss her forhead and then Stephanies forehead. We were a family now, we were a family. Sophia made us stronger. "I love you both. We're a family now, and damn, am I happy about that!"
Monday, September 6, 2010
How Much Longer Can I Hold On;;Stephanie/Patrick/Ella/Jonny;;60
--Stephanie---
I'm in the waiting room of the doctors office with Sidney and Patrick. I'm watching the two guys stare each other down as I'm looking through my phone. I just want this to be done and over with. The door swings ooen and a doctor is standing there. "Stephanie, Sidney, and Patrick," she says as we follow her into a room.
I sit on the counter as Patrick and Sidney give eachother the glare. I've had it now. "Okay, the two of you, this is obnoxious, please stop," I ask them but Patrick keeps staring at him. The doctor luckily comes in as Patrick flicks Sidney off as I throw my shoe at Patrick. "Was that necessary?" I ask him. The doctor looks at the three of us. "Ms. Pratt, are you carrying these gentlemans baby?" He asks.
"Oh God no!" Sidney says.
"Do you really think that I'm gay and even if I were, do you REALLY think I'd be gay with this bitch?"
"Alright, I see we don't know who the father is?" he asks as we nodd. "Stephanie, your gonna pee in the cup first," he says, handing me a cup.
"That's really we're going to solve this, peeing in a cup!?" Patrick says as I walk into the bathroom, leaving dumb and dumber by themselves while praying to God they don't break anything, let alone kill each other.
--Patrick--
"Do you guys have a name picked up?"
Sidney asks me as I'm stairing at the wall, avoiding his eyes. I don't say anything but I do catch him standing there with his arms across his chest. For some God damn reason, I feel like Ella and him would work out perfectly, only because Ella has her tendency's of being a bitch at times. "No, we don't. I really don't feel like making small talk."
"I'm just trying to be nice. Look, I think we both have been acting like total dumb asses."
"Patrick, your turn," the doctor says, handing me a cup.
I walk into the bathroom and close the door. If I knew that they were going to make me do a piss test, I would've drank a crapton of water. I eventually piss and go back into the doctors office. Sidney takes his test and we wait upon the results. I'm looking at Stephanie now and I say to her, "Baby, whatever happens, we're gonna raise this family normally." The doctor comes in and closes the door. We all look at him as I ask him what the results where.
"Patrick...you are the father."
Stephanie begins to cry of happiness as I send out mass text messages. Sidney congratulates me and we head off. We're in the car now as Ally says were having a celebration dinner at Gino's East. I'm at a red light now and I look at Stephanie as she asks the one question I could've sworn was a joke at first. "Do you think we could ask Ella and Johnny to be the god parents of the baby?"
"You're serious?"
"Yes, only because there the mature ones of the group."
"I don't think that's going to go well between the two, but we can try."
"Okay," she says with a smile as I pull into Gino's East, waiting for the fireworks between Jon and Ella to ignite...
--Ella---
I walk into the private party room at Gino's to see the whole team there and the only seat available is across from Jon. He called me after he got out of the hospital to say thank you, but we didn't really talk after that. I take the seat, which is next to Sharpie and Troy, and say hi to everyone. Patrick stands up and clings his glass. We're all looking at him now. "Ella, it's nice of you to finally show up," he jokes.
"Cute Kanner," I joke back.
"Well...so I'm the father..and on behalf of Stephanie and I...Ella and Jonny, we have a serious question for you two..."
I didn't like where the hell this was going. I don't look at Jonny, but I feel his stare. This was not going to go well. "Ella and Jonny, will you two be the godparents of our child?" I'm now looking at Jonny, this was not what I was expecting. Jonny looks at me, we both don't know what to say. Jonny speaks for me though. "We'll do it." he says. Now I'm speechless. I excuse myself and walk outside. I feel someone follow me as the doors swing open.
--Jonny--
"Ella!"
She's turned around, looking at me now. She looks aggravated. I bassically agreed for her to be the god mother of Patrick and Stephanies child. "What Jonny? You think that'll save us, by agreeing to that!?" She yells at me. I shake my head. We are back to where we were last year, except we're both lonely.
"Ella, I just want to be friends okay?"
"Jonny, I told you, there is no more you and I...and...and you go agree to that!"
"Ella, I know there is no you and I anymore, we can be friends and still be the god parents."
"Jonathan, if something happens to them, the child is our responsibility. Look at us, look--"
"Ella, I love you."
"I cannot love you."
"And we're back to round two."
"Round two?"
"You couldn't love me apparently this time last year."
"I had Kris last year."
"Do you have him now? Do you have anyone? No. Ella, I don't know how much longer I can hold on."
"I will be the godmother of this child and stand up with you in the wedding, but that's it Jon."
I watch her walk into the restaurant and I sit on the bench, running my hand through my hair. This wasn't the end for her and I. This baby and the wedding were going to bring us together again, I know it would. I finally walk back in and take my seat, looking at her. "Why'd you save my life?" I ask aloud. The whole table looks at us now. She doesn't say anything. "God damnit Ella, why did you save my life?"
"You saved me three times. You didn't let my ass get raped, you didn't leave me on the ice to die, and you didn't let me die of brain damage. I wasn't going to let you get burnt to death."
"That's it?"
"You have my back, I have yours. That's what friends are for."
Friends...that's what we are. I sigh and take a sip of my drink and just look at her. "Well Ella, were back to round three...just friends."
And that was that.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I Still Love You;;Ella/Jonny;;59
I'm sitting in the waiting room with Brent, Ally, Alfonso, my Dad, Christina, and Nik. We're waiting for Stephanie and Kanner to get here from one of Stephanies ultrasounds since she's entering her thrid trimester, meaning we get to find out who the father is soon. Alfonso is sleeping on Christina's lap, while my dad is on the phone with the insurance agent, Ally is on the phone with her mom, and Nik and Brent are pacing back and forth while we're waiting for Jonny. I'm sitting there, hoping to God this would all be okay in the end. We see Stephanie and Kanner walk in. Stephanie takes a seat next to me. She's fucken huge now. "Hey how are you feeling?"
"Like crap. how was the ultrasound?"
"Sidney's coming a week from today. We're getting this done and over with then. I can't believe the baby is due in a month."
Her saying that makes me realize its October. She gives me a hug as we see a doctor come out. We all gather around the doctor. "Well...he's going to be okay. Who got him out of the building?" She asks. Everyone is standing behind me now, leaving me face to face with the doctor. "You're lucky to get him out when you did. He only has first degree burns and he's off the tanks."
"Can I see him?"
"He's sleeping but you can come in. Is anyone staying the night thats family?"
"Meaning I can't stay?" I ask.
"Family only."
"His families on their way," Brent tells her.
I follow the doctors directions and land myself in room 1823. I look at Jonny, who has an IV hooked up to him. I look at his flatline monitor to make sure he's still breathing. I pull the chair up next to the bed and see the ash is still on his face. "Hi Jonny," is all I get out. I can't stand to see him like this. "The doctors said I got you out in time. I'm sorry for everything I've ever said to you before all of this," I begin while the waterworks begin. "I want you to know that I want you in my life still, as a friend."
Why can't I just tell him I still love him?
"Jonny, pull through for me, please?" I begin as I hold my hand to my face and wipe away the tears. This was too much for me. I didn't know how I didn't break down yet. "Jonny, if I could, I'd pull down the moon for you, and go back to when you first told me you loved me..." I'm now crying like a five year old as someone's hand is on me. I look up and see my dad. I wipe away the tears.
"Visiting hours are up. Jonny should be out in a few days. Stay by me tonight okay?" I nodd at my dad and kiss Jonnys forehead. "I still love you Jonny," I whisper in his ear. I knew he couldn't hear a fucken word I said, but I had to get it off my chest.. I buckle my seatbelt up as my dad tells us we're going to get burgers. I don't each much, I have no feeling for food. I feel numb, I feel lost. My dad looks at me and finally says, "You still love him, don't you?"
"More than anything dad."
--Jonny---
"Jonny, Jonny are you up?"
"Mom?"
I open my eyes to see my mom, dad, and brother in a hospital room. My dad is talking to a doctor and my mom is hugging me. "Oh, thank God you're okay!" My mom exclaims. I hug her back, but I have no idea what the hell happened.
"Good to see your up. You should be out of here in two days."
"What happened?"
"Ella and Ally's apartment caught on fire. You were knocked out. Ella saved your life."
"What?"
Did I hear correctly that Ella saved my life? I rub my head and notice the burn scars on my arm. I'm now kind of remembering tripping over a chair as I was trying to make my escape out of the apartment. I remember everything going black. The doctor steps out in the hallway with my dad and brother, leaving my mom and I alone. "Ella is such a lovely girl, you're lucky to have her as a friend."
"Our friendship is fucked up right now because of me."
"Jon, you love her still?"
"I fucked up mom, what do you think?"
"Win her back."
"Not right now, she's going through a lot. Her mom just died. I should just leave her alone."
"Jonny, it'll be okay with you two."
"Mom..."
"I found this in your apartment."
She hands me a picture of Ella and I when we were in the city one day before the Stanley Cup finals. She's standing infront of me, and my arms are across her chest and she's holding my arms tight. I feel a tear roll down my face as my mom puts the picture on my nightstand. "Mom, I can't win her back right now."
"She'll wait for you Jonny. Now you need to sleep."
And at this rate, I hope she was right. I shut my eyes. I hope everything would be okay again. It was going to be a long few months but I knew what I had to do. I had to win Ella back...
If it were the last thing I'd do.
"Like crap. how was the ultrasound?"
"Sidney's coming a week from today. We're getting this done and over with then. I can't believe the baby is due in a month."
Her saying that makes me realize its October. She gives me a hug as we see a doctor come out. We all gather around the doctor. "Well...he's going to be okay. Who got him out of the building?" She asks. Everyone is standing behind me now, leaving me face to face with the doctor. "You're lucky to get him out when you did. He only has first degree burns and he's off the tanks."
"Can I see him?"
"He's sleeping but you can come in. Is anyone staying the night thats family?"
"Meaning I can't stay?" I ask.
"Family only."
"His families on their way," Brent tells her.
I follow the doctors directions and land myself in room 1823. I look at Jonny, who has an IV hooked up to him. I look at his flatline monitor to make sure he's still breathing. I pull the chair up next to the bed and see the ash is still on his face. "Hi Jonny," is all I get out. I can't stand to see him like this. "The doctors said I got you out in time. I'm sorry for everything I've ever said to you before all of this," I begin while the waterworks begin. "I want you to know that I want you in my life still, as a friend."
Why can't I just tell him I still love him?
"Jonny, pull through for me, please?" I begin as I hold my hand to my face and wipe away the tears. This was too much for me. I didn't know how I didn't break down yet. "Jonny, if I could, I'd pull down the moon for you, and go back to when you first told me you loved me..." I'm now crying like a five year old as someone's hand is on me. I look up and see my dad. I wipe away the tears.
"Visiting hours are up. Jonny should be out in a few days. Stay by me tonight okay?" I nodd at my dad and kiss Jonnys forehead. "I still love you Jonny," I whisper in his ear. I knew he couldn't hear a fucken word I said, but I had to get it off my chest.. I buckle my seatbelt up as my dad tells us we're going to get burgers. I don't each much, I have no feeling for food. I feel numb, I feel lost. My dad looks at me and finally says, "You still love him, don't you?"
"More than anything dad."
--Jonny---
"Jonny, Jonny are you up?"
"Mom?"
I open my eyes to see my mom, dad, and brother in a hospital room. My dad is talking to a doctor and my mom is hugging me. "Oh, thank God you're okay!" My mom exclaims. I hug her back, but I have no idea what the hell happened.
"Good to see your up. You should be out of here in two days."
"What happened?"
"Ella and Ally's apartment caught on fire. You were knocked out. Ella saved your life."
"What?"
Did I hear correctly that Ella saved my life? I rub my head and notice the burn scars on my arm. I'm now kind of remembering tripping over a chair as I was trying to make my escape out of the apartment. I remember everything going black. The doctor steps out in the hallway with my dad and brother, leaving my mom and I alone. "Ella is such a lovely girl, you're lucky to have her as a friend."
"Our friendship is fucked up right now because of me."
"Jon, you love her still?"
"I fucked up mom, what do you think?"
"Win her back."
"Not right now, she's going through a lot. Her mom just died. I should just leave her alone."
"Jonny, it'll be okay with you two."
"Mom..."
"I found this in your apartment."
She hands me a picture of Ella and I when we were in the city one day before the Stanley Cup finals. She's standing infront of me, and my arms are across her chest and she's holding my arms tight. I feel a tear roll down my face as my mom puts the picture on my nightstand. "Mom, I can't win her back right now."
"She'll wait for you Jonny. Now you need to sleep."
And at this rate, I hope she was right. I shut my eyes. I hope everything would be okay again. It was going to be a long few months but I knew what I had to do. I had to win Ella back...
If it were the last thing I'd do.
He Never Left Me, I Can't Leave Him;;Ella;;58
A few weeks went by. I was finally back at the appartment and haven't spoken to Jonny. I come out of my room in shorts and a teeshirt to see Ally at the counter drinking coffee. I sit across from her as she looks up. "Are you feeling a little better today?" She asks me. I shake my head. I wasn't in the mood for this today. We hear the door open and voice as the door shuts. I turn to see Brent and Jonny walk into the appartment.
Why the bloody hell did he bring him?
"Hey you," Brent says hugging me.
"Hey Brent...Hi Jon."
"Hi Ella," is all he says.
"How are you feeling today?" Brent asked me.
If someone asks me that one more time I was gonna punch them in the fucken face. I tell Brent I was feeling better when I wasn't. I look at Jon and see him shake his head. He knew I was lying for shit. He excuses himself and decides to use the bathroom. Brent looks at me and shakes his head. "When the hell are you going to man up and tell him you still love him?" he whispers.
"Never."
"Ella, you have to tell him."
"I'm joining a convent."
"Ella, stop being a dumbshit."
"I'm not being a dumbshit--guys, do you smell smoke?"
Ally goes over to the window as the smoke detector goes off. She looks down at the floor below us and gasps. "OUT NOW!" She yells as we run to the hallway. We open the door and see the smoke coming in. "Take the stairs!" Brent yells. Were running for the stairs when I realize there is only three of us. I yell for the two to stop as the flames grow in the hallway.
"GUYS! JONNY!"
"Ella come on!" Brent yells.
"We can't leave him!" I yell.
"Ella, the flames are getting bigger come on!"
"I'm going back for him!"
"ELLA COME ON LETS GO!" Brent yells.
"BRENT! HE DIDNT LEAVE ME WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL! HE DIDNT LEAVE ME ON THE ICE TO DIE! I'M NOT LEAVING HIM!"
I run back for the apartment as Brent is yelling for me. I kick the door open and raise my arms over my forehead. I see smoke and flames. I'm running around the appartment. "JONNY!" I yell as I remember him saying he was going to the bathroom. "JONNY!" I'm yelling as I'm trying to keep myself from panicking. I'm coughing now as I see two legs sticking out from behind the counter. I run over and see the figure on the floor. "JONNY GET UP!" I yell as I bend down. He's unconscious. I keep yelling for him to get up as part of the ceiling falls from the bedroom. I knew I had to get out of there.
I lean Jonny against my shoulder as I go for the hallway to see the flames. I go out there anyways. I'm running down the stairs now with a sixfoot two hundred pound guy on my shoulder. I'm coughing now but I finally get outside as a paramedic takes Jonny. I can't see but I feel someone grab me as I keep coughing. "Ella calm down," I hear someone say. I begin punching the person. "GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME!" I'm yelling through coughs. I finally open my eyes and see it's my dad. I grab my dad and hug him as he tells me a paramedic needs to check me out. I sit on the ambulance and do a breathing test. That's when I lost it.
Jonny was on a stretcher with an oxygen tank hooked up to him.
"JONATHAN!" I yell running over to the stretcher. I'm pushing my way past the paramedics as Brent and my dad come toward me. "Jonny! HELP HIM!" I'm yelling at the paramedics as they put the stretcher in the ambulance. That's when I heard the words I didn't want to hear.
"He's having breathing problems and possibly first degree burns. Get him to St. Joes on Lakeshore now!"
"HELP HIM!"
I yell as I cry. I feel my dad hug me as I hear Alfonso yell my name. Brent picks him up and hugs us both with Ally joining. I'm crying now as the fireman try to save our appartment. It then dawns on me...
Ally and I are quite possibly homeless.
And I'm so fucken lost without Jonathan.
Fuck my life right now.
Why the bloody hell did he bring him?
"Hey you," Brent says hugging me.
"Hey Brent...Hi Jon."
"Hi Ella," is all he says.
"How are you feeling today?" Brent asked me.
If someone asks me that one more time I was gonna punch them in the fucken face. I tell Brent I was feeling better when I wasn't. I look at Jon and see him shake his head. He knew I was lying for shit. He excuses himself and decides to use the bathroom. Brent looks at me and shakes his head. "When the hell are you going to man up and tell him you still love him?" he whispers.
"Never."
"Ella, you have to tell him."
"I'm joining a convent."
"Ella, stop being a dumbshit."
"I'm not being a dumbshit--guys, do you smell smoke?"
Ally goes over to the window as the smoke detector goes off. She looks down at the floor below us and gasps. "OUT NOW!" She yells as we run to the hallway. We open the door and see the smoke coming in. "Take the stairs!" Brent yells. Were running for the stairs when I realize there is only three of us. I yell for the two to stop as the flames grow in the hallway.
"GUYS! JONNY!"
"Ella come on!" Brent yells.
"We can't leave him!" I yell.
"Ella, the flames are getting bigger come on!"
"I'm going back for him!"
"ELLA COME ON LETS GO!" Brent yells.
"BRENT! HE DIDNT LEAVE ME WHEN I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL! HE DIDNT LEAVE ME ON THE ICE TO DIE! I'M NOT LEAVING HIM!"
I run back for the apartment as Brent is yelling for me. I kick the door open and raise my arms over my forehead. I see smoke and flames. I'm running around the appartment. "JONNY!" I yell as I remember him saying he was going to the bathroom. "JONNY!" I'm yelling as I'm trying to keep myself from panicking. I'm coughing now as I see two legs sticking out from behind the counter. I run over and see the figure on the floor. "JONNY GET UP!" I yell as I bend down. He's unconscious. I keep yelling for him to get up as part of the ceiling falls from the bedroom. I knew I had to get out of there.
I lean Jonny against my shoulder as I go for the hallway to see the flames. I go out there anyways. I'm running down the stairs now with a sixfoot two hundred pound guy on my shoulder. I'm coughing now but I finally get outside as a paramedic takes Jonny. I can't see but I feel someone grab me as I keep coughing. "Ella calm down," I hear someone say. I begin punching the person. "GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME!" I'm yelling through coughs. I finally open my eyes and see it's my dad. I grab my dad and hug him as he tells me a paramedic needs to check me out. I sit on the ambulance and do a breathing test. That's when I lost it.
Jonny was on a stretcher with an oxygen tank hooked up to him.
"JONATHAN!" I yell running over to the stretcher. I'm pushing my way past the paramedics as Brent and my dad come toward me. "Jonny! HELP HIM!" I'm yelling at the paramedics as they put the stretcher in the ambulance. That's when I heard the words I didn't want to hear.
"He's having breathing problems and possibly first degree burns. Get him to St. Joes on Lakeshore now!"
"HELP HIM!"
I yell as I cry. I feel my dad hug me as I hear Alfonso yell my name. Brent picks him up and hugs us both with Ally joining. I'm crying now as the fireman try to save our appartment. It then dawns on me...
Ally and I are quite possibly homeless.
And I'm so fucken lost without Jonathan.
Fuck my life right now.
Confessions&Second Chance Options;;Ella;;57
I meet my dad and Alfonso at the corners office. We're sitting in the waiting area as Alfonso is on my dads lap. My head is on my dads shoulder right now. He didn't need this. Jay and him just broke up and now his exwife was found dead. "Dad, what the hell happened?" I asked him as he looks at me.
"Alfonso came home from a friends and found mom in the living room. He said she wasn't moving so he called me and 9-1-1."
"Dad, you shouldn't have to be going through this."
"Ella, we have to go through lifes ups and downs--"
"Mr. Gianni?"
We all stand up and follow the forensic scientist and cop into a room. My dad sits down and places a half asleep now twelve year old Alfonso on his lap. I sit next to my dad as my cop and the forensic scientist opens up a file. My dad looks like he feels bad about something. "She had an overdose, your exwife."
"On what?" I ask.
"Prescription medication and oxycotton. Did she have a history of drug addictions?"
"Oh man..."
"Dad?" Alfonso and I say in unison.
"Guys, I should've told you. Ella, when she had you, she had a stint in rehab."
"No wonder why I'm closer to you than I was to her.."
"Fonso, she had an alcohol problem sometime after you were born..."
This was unreal now. My mom had an alcohol and drug problem. The cops tell Alfosnso and I to leave. I tell dad I'll bring him home. We're at my dads now. I'm lying in my king sized bed as a knock comes from my door. It creaks open and theres somewhat taller but still tiny Alfonso standing there. "Whats up Alfonso?" I ask him.
"Can I lay with you?"
"I don't see why you wouldn't be able too."
I move over as he lies on my bed with me. We're both not saying anything because we don't have anything to say. "What's going to happen now Ella?" He asks me. I look at my brother and see that we both have my dads features, but he looks more like dad than I do.
"Well...I know for a fact mom didn't make a will, so dad has full custody of you now."
There's a knock on the wall. I see my dad standing in the door way. I try to smile as he places his hands in the pockets of his hoodie. "Can I join you two?" He asks as we nodd. My dad sits in the middle of Alfonso and I as his arms are around both of us. "Are you guys okay?" he asks us.
"Why didn't you tell us the truth dad?" Alfonso asks us.
"I wanted to keep you guys from worrying, your my number one priority ever since you both were born. Want to know a secret? I practically raised you two on my own."
"You did a good job dad," Alfonso says as my dad kisses his head. "You're the best."
"Dad...are you okay, you know with the whole Jay thing and this?" I ask.
"I'll be fine. I think I'm going to date woman again. And this incident, it's just going to make our bond stronger as a family."
"Ella are you still sad about Jonny?"
Did Alfonso really have to ask me that? I look at the ceiling. I wasn't okay, I had to lie to myself everyday and pretend I didn't care, but inside I did care. I still loved him more than anything. "Lets get through this right now before I answer that?"
It was the funeral. We were all at a luncheon with the family, including Christina's mom and sisters, Nik, Ally and her family, Brent, Stephanie and her parents, Patrick Kane, the whole freaken team except for Johnny, and my dads side. I was sitting with Christina, Brent, Ally, Stephanie, Kanner, and Nik when I saw Johnny walk in by himself. I get up and walk over to him. I knew I couldn't avoid him forever. "Hey," he says hugging me. "I'm so sorry Ella."
"It's okay Jonny, really."
"I'm here for you if you and your family need anything."
"I know, thank you. Where's Brigid?"
"She's not in my life anymore. I think I need sometime to think about things."
"That's nice. Thanks for coming Jonny," I say as Alfonso comes up to us.
"Hey Alfonso," Jonny says to him.
"If you want, you can get food."
"I'm gonna actually head out. If you need anything, you know how to find me."
"Thank you."
I watch Jonny leave as Alfonso pulls on my arm. I look down at him and bend down to his level. He's watching my face as I watch Jonny walk out of the room. I feel a tear roll down my eye. "Ella, do you honestly still love him?" Alfonso asks me. I don't have anything to say right now, because we all know the answer. "Ella, everyone deserves a second chance." Oh Alfonso your so naive and innocent. I shake my head as Brent bends down to our level.
"Jonny doesn't deserve a second chance right now..."
I watch Brent pick Alfonso up and give me a hug. "I'm here for you best friend," he tells me as I cry into his shirt. Alfonso is crying too. This wasn't the time for all of this to be happening. I feel Brent run his hand through my hair as I feel his grip pull tighter on Alfonso and I. "It's okay Ella, let it all out. Alfonso, its okay to cry. Boys have to cry at one point, it's okay to cry," Brent tells us as Alfonso starts crying.
It was going to be a rough few months, I just knew it. I cried somemore and through my sobs, I heard myself saying the following:
"Mom, I'm so sorry. Jonny, I miss you, I miss you so much."
"Alfonso came home from a friends and found mom in the living room. He said she wasn't moving so he called me and 9-1-1."
"Dad, you shouldn't have to be going through this."
"Ella, we have to go through lifes ups and downs--"
"Mr. Gianni?"
We all stand up and follow the forensic scientist and cop into a room. My dad sits down and places a half asleep now twelve year old Alfonso on his lap. I sit next to my dad as my cop and the forensic scientist opens up a file. My dad looks like he feels bad about something. "She had an overdose, your exwife."
"On what?" I ask.
"Prescription medication and oxycotton. Did she have a history of drug addictions?"
"Oh man..."
"Dad?" Alfonso and I say in unison.
"Guys, I should've told you. Ella, when she had you, she had a stint in rehab."
"No wonder why I'm closer to you than I was to her.."
"Fonso, she had an alcohol problem sometime after you were born..."
This was unreal now. My mom had an alcohol and drug problem. The cops tell Alfosnso and I to leave. I tell dad I'll bring him home. We're at my dads now. I'm lying in my king sized bed as a knock comes from my door. It creaks open and theres somewhat taller but still tiny Alfonso standing there. "Whats up Alfonso?" I ask him.
"Can I lay with you?"
"I don't see why you wouldn't be able too."
I move over as he lies on my bed with me. We're both not saying anything because we don't have anything to say. "What's going to happen now Ella?" He asks me. I look at my brother and see that we both have my dads features, but he looks more like dad than I do.
"Well...I know for a fact mom didn't make a will, so dad has full custody of you now."
There's a knock on the wall. I see my dad standing in the door way. I try to smile as he places his hands in the pockets of his hoodie. "Can I join you two?" He asks as we nodd. My dad sits in the middle of Alfonso and I as his arms are around both of us. "Are you guys okay?" he asks us.
"Why didn't you tell us the truth dad?" Alfonso asks us.
"I wanted to keep you guys from worrying, your my number one priority ever since you both were born. Want to know a secret? I practically raised you two on my own."
"You did a good job dad," Alfonso says as my dad kisses his head. "You're the best."
"Dad...are you okay, you know with the whole Jay thing and this?" I ask.
"I'll be fine. I think I'm going to date woman again. And this incident, it's just going to make our bond stronger as a family."
"Ella are you still sad about Jonny?"
Did Alfonso really have to ask me that? I look at the ceiling. I wasn't okay, I had to lie to myself everyday and pretend I didn't care, but inside I did care. I still loved him more than anything. "Lets get through this right now before I answer that?"
It was the funeral. We were all at a luncheon with the family, including Christina's mom and sisters, Nik, Ally and her family, Brent, Stephanie and her parents, Patrick Kane, the whole freaken team except for Johnny, and my dads side. I was sitting with Christina, Brent, Ally, Stephanie, Kanner, and Nik when I saw Johnny walk in by himself. I get up and walk over to him. I knew I couldn't avoid him forever. "Hey," he says hugging me. "I'm so sorry Ella."
"It's okay Jonny, really."
"I'm here for you if you and your family need anything."
"I know, thank you. Where's Brigid?"
"She's not in my life anymore. I think I need sometime to think about things."
"That's nice. Thanks for coming Jonny," I say as Alfonso comes up to us.
"Hey Alfonso," Jonny says to him.
"If you want, you can get food."
"I'm gonna actually head out. If you need anything, you know how to find me."
"Thank you."
I watch Jonny leave as Alfonso pulls on my arm. I look down at him and bend down to his level. He's watching my face as I watch Jonny walk out of the room. I feel a tear roll down my eye. "Ella, do you honestly still love him?" Alfonso asks me. I don't have anything to say right now, because we all know the answer. "Ella, everyone deserves a second chance." Oh Alfonso your so naive and innocent. I shake my head as Brent bends down to our level.
"Jonny doesn't deserve a second chance right now..."
I watch Brent pick Alfonso up and give me a hug. "I'm here for you best friend," he tells me as I cry into his shirt. Alfonso is crying too. This wasn't the time for all of this to be happening. I feel Brent run his hand through my hair as I feel his grip pull tighter on Alfonso and I. "It's okay Ella, let it all out. Alfonso, its okay to cry. Boys have to cry at one point, it's okay to cry," Brent tells us as Alfonso starts crying.
It was going to be a rough few months, I just knew it. I cried somemore and through my sobs, I heard myself saying the following:
"Mom, I'm so sorry. Jonny, I miss you, I miss you so much."
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