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Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
A Possible Death Warrent;;Ella;;64
It's been a week since Jonny and I got back together. We decided to keep it on the down low because I didn't feel like going through a full out saga with everyone about our relationship. So far our familes and the team new, but that was about it. We weren't ready to publicize our relationship.
It was new years and I was at the Doctors getting looked at. I hear my name being called and before I know it, they are drawing blood from my arm. Why was this happening? I have had the worst headaches since the wedding and it's gotten to the point where I was told to go to the doctor due to a lump on my head. The doctor comes into the room ten minutes later and sits down, placing my file on the desk. "Antonella..."
"Doctor Wallace..."
"We have a problem."
I hated those worse oh so very much. She rubs her forehead and shows me the results. "Antonella...you have a tumor," she flat out tells me. My eyes are widened. I'm lost lost for words now. I might as well sign my death slip now and enter the after life.
"Are you sure?" I ask her.
"I'm positive...we can remove it though, it's at a good stage where we can get it out."
"Is it fatal?"
She doesn't say anything. I know the answer to this. I could possibly die during surgery. Her eyes say it all. Now I'm scared. "There is a good chance you won't survive the surgery Ella. Do you want to go through with it though?" She asks me.
"What are the odds I'll survive?"
"A good 30% chance."
"I'll take that chance."
"We'll schedule the surgery."
I schedule the surgery for a week from today. I then sit in my car and ball my eyes out. This wasn't happening. I wasn't dying. I put the keys in the ignition and drive to Jonnys appartment. I knock on the door and he opens it. He's surprised to see me crying. "Ella, baby what's wrong?" He asks me as I walk in. "Baby sit down.Why are you crying? How was the doctor?"
"Jonny..."
"Baby..."
"I have a brain tumor."
Jonny doesn't say anything but I can see he's wanting to cry. And believe me, it takes alot for this man to cry. Apparently he cried over me in Vancouver during the Olympics and tore his hotel room apart. "What's next?" He asks me as he wipes the tears away from my cheek.
"I have to have surgery in a week."
"Will you survive?"
"There's a 30% chance I will survive."
"And a 70% chance you won't."
"Yeah."
"Baby, it's going to be okay."
"And what if it's not?"
"Baby, I promise you it's going to be okay."
I'm sobbing my eyes out now. Jonny pulls me into a hug and runs his hand through my hair. "It's going to be okay baby, it's going to be okay," he keeps telling me as I hear him sob too. I was dying. I was fucken dying and there was a small chance I was going to die.
Jonny took the next week off to help me get through this. It was the night before my surgery and I was lying in his bed at his condo. His arm was under me and I had my head on chest. He kisses my forehead and I just look at him. "Jonny...whatever happens, I will always be with you."
"Ella...I will always love you."
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It was new years and I was at the Doctors getting looked at. I hear my name being called and before I know it, they are drawing blood from my arm. Why was this happening? I have had the worst headaches since the wedding and it's gotten to the point where I was told to go to the doctor due to a lump on my head. The doctor comes into the room ten minutes later and sits down, placing my file on the desk. "Antonella..."
"Doctor Wallace..."
"We have a problem."
I hated those worse oh so very much. She rubs her forehead and shows me the results. "Antonella...you have a tumor," she flat out tells me. My eyes are widened. I'm lost lost for words now. I might as well sign my death slip now and enter the after life.
"Are you sure?" I ask her.
"I'm positive...we can remove it though, it's at a good stage where we can get it out."
"Is it fatal?"
She doesn't say anything. I know the answer to this. I could possibly die during surgery. Her eyes say it all. Now I'm scared. "There is a good chance you won't survive the surgery Ella. Do you want to go through with it though?" She asks me.
"What are the odds I'll survive?"
"A good 30% chance."
"I'll take that chance."
"We'll schedule the surgery."
I schedule the surgery for a week from today. I then sit in my car and ball my eyes out. This wasn't happening. I wasn't dying. I put the keys in the ignition and drive to Jonnys appartment. I knock on the door and he opens it. He's surprised to see me crying. "Ella, baby what's wrong?" He asks me as I walk in. "Baby sit down.Why are you crying? How was the doctor?"
"Jonny..."
"Baby..."
"I have a brain tumor."
Jonny doesn't say anything but I can see he's wanting to cry. And believe me, it takes alot for this man to cry. Apparently he cried over me in Vancouver during the Olympics and tore his hotel room apart. "What's next?" He asks me as he wipes the tears away from my cheek.
"I have to have surgery in a week."
"Will you survive?"
"There's a 30% chance I will survive."
"And a 70% chance you won't."
"Yeah."
"Baby, it's going to be okay."
"And what if it's not?"
"Baby, I promise you it's going to be okay."
I'm sobbing my eyes out now. Jonny pulls me into a hug and runs his hand through my hair. "It's going to be okay baby, it's going to be okay," he keeps telling me as I hear him sob too. I was dying. I was fucken dying and there was a small chance I was going to die.
Jonny took the next week off to help me get through this. It was the night before my surgery and I was lying in his bed at his condo. His arm was under me and I had my head on chest. He kisses my forehead and I just look at him. "Jonny...whatever happens, I will always be with you."
"Ella...I will always love you."
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Sunday, October 3, 2010
Wedding Day;;Ella;;63 Pt 3
We were finally at the Drake, enjoying drinks and little mini appitizers that they were serving. Jonny and I kept our distance after our fake smiles at the wedding for everyone to see that we were only pretending to be happy when in reality, we both were miserable and wouldn't mind killing ourselves at any given moment.
The music was filling the lobby of the banquet hall of the Drake, switching from Aerosmith to Drake and such. I was standing with Alfonso talking to Brent and Ally when I saw my dad come by. I smile and hug my dad. "Well..I haven't seen you two kids all day!"
"Yeah, I'M HUNGRY!" Alfonso yelled.
"Ella, you look just like your mom right now...except sober."
"I plan on getting mad drunk tonight dad."
"Jonny's been looking for you. You---"
"LINE UP FOR DINNER!"
We all line up and Jonny is standing next to me as the MC is announcing the bridal party. He's looking at me now, but I'm looking forward. "Can we talk later tonight?" He asks me. I don't say anything. I'm not in the mood to talk. I just want an alcoholic beverage. "Are you going to ignore me?"
"Maid of Honor and Best Man: Jonathan Toews and Antonella Gianni!"
We walk out and sit at the table. Jonny pulls the chair out as the MC announces Nik and Christina. They sit and I stand. It's time to make the lovely speech. I didn't even come up with a speech. I knew what I was going to do...bullshit this speech. "Hey guys...well...Niklas..." I begin, looking at my new cousin in law. "I remember when Christina first told me she knew you...I thought it was a joke...then she told me you two were dating...then it dawned on me that my cousin was being a badass and dating a sweed!"
The whole room begins laughing now as I take a sip of water. The room goes quiet as I begin to talk again. "Well...your my best friend Nik and Christina is more than my cousin...she's my sister, which makes you my brother. OH MY GOD NIK IS MY BROTHER!" Everyone is laughing again and the funny thing is...I'm practically sober. "Nik...you're so good to her and you make her happy...please do that the rest of you're lives."
Everyones clapping now and Jonny stand up. This speech was going to be eventful. Everyone goes quiet and he starts talking. "As I qoute on qoute, 'Yes, I am dating Christina", I personally thought it was a joke that Nik had a girlfriend!" Everyone is laughing at that comment but then he continues to talk. "Christina...your a great person and perfect for Nik. I remember when I first met you you crashed Brents party and I was thinking to myself, damn, Nik is lucky to find someone whos perfect for him. Take care of my buddy, okay?"
And that was that. Dinner came about and then the MC called Nik and Christina to the dance floor. The song If I Die Tomorrow by Motley Crue goes off and they begin dancing. I'm keeping my distance from Jonny but as the song goes off the MC calls the bridal party to come and dance. Bruce Springsteens Dancing in the Dark and were all dancing. It's the first time Jonnys hands are in mine since the break up. He's looking at me now, I'm looking back. I let go. "I'll be back," I say as I run away.
I'm running outside on the deck that the Drake has set out by their banquet hall. I'm not wearing a jacket and to be honest, it doesn't phase me that it's below zero out. I gripping on the railing of the deck and notice that I'm the only person out here right now. I'm looking at the city and the cars go by. I missed Jonny, I loved Jonny, I hated Jonny, it was like a whole fucken rollercoaster.
"You do know it's below zero out here, right?"
I turn around and cross my arms but look at the ground. It's Jonny. I then look up and see him coming toward me. This was just great. I turn back to look at the cars go by but he doesn't stand next to me. "Why are you even out here anyways?" He asks me.
"I needed air."
"Uh huh. Look, I'm going to ask you one final time but that's it."
"Ask me what?" I ask him, turning around.
"Do you still love me? Ella, I need to know."
I don't say anything. It's like my voice box was cut out of my throat and I couldn't talk. I went completely mute. He's shaking his head now and I'm looking at the ground. "Ella, I'm done chasing after you. I'm done waiting around thinking your going to come back to me."
He's walking away now. I'm watching him walk out of my life. I knew that if he did, I'd never get him back to call him my own. I needed to fix this. "JONATHAN!" I yell, running after him in heels. "SHIT!" I yell.
I feel myself hit the ice. I feel the sting in my arm as I winced in pain. "Ella, are you alright?" Jonny asks me as he knees down to me. I'm realizing that I'm now cold and my shoes were broken. Jonny takes them off for me and the looks at my arm. "You got lucky, it's not broken." And that's when the words came out of my mouth.
"I still love you Jonny."
He's looking at me now. I'm looking back. I can't believe those fucken words came out of my mouth. "What did you just say?" He asks me. I'm mute again. I look at the ice and a tear rolls down my cheek.
"I still love you idiot."
Jonny helps me up and we're looking at each other eye to eye. It was at that moment he leaned in and caressed his lips on mine. I kiss him back and then he pulls away. "What made you change your mind?" I ask him. He then pulls his jacket off and slips it around me.
"I still care about you, I made a mistake, we all make mistakes."
"Thank you for coming back," I smile.
"Thank you for letting me. Now let's get inside, okay?"
He grabs my shoes and walks back inside with me, hand in hand. He drops my shoes off at a random chair and we go to the dance floor. I wrap my arms around his neck and his hands are on my waist. It was then I rested my head on his chest and I felt his chin rest on top of my head. I was at ease. I had him back. Nothing was going to come in the way of him and I.
And I meant nothing.
I had the whole world in the palm of my hand.
The music was filling the lobby of the banquet hall of the Drake, switching from Aerosmith to Drake and such. I was standing with Alfonso talking to Brent and Ally when I saw my dad come by. I smile and hug my dad. "Well..I haven't seen you two kids all day!"
"Yeah, I'M HUNGRY!" Alfonso yelled.
"Ella, you look just like your mom right now...except sober."
"I plan on getting mad drunk tonight dad."
"Jonny's been looking for you. You---"
"LINE UP FOR DINNER!"
We all line up and Jonny is standing next to me as the MC is announcing the bridal party. He's looking at me now, but I'm looking forward. "Can we talk later tonight?" He asks me. I don't say anything. I'm not in the mood to talk. I just want an alcoholic beverage. "Are you going to ignore me?"
"Maid of Honor and Best Man: Jonathan Toews and Antonella Gianni!"
We walk out and sit at the table. Jonny pulls the chair out as the MC announces Nik and Christina. They sit and I stand. It's time to make the lovely speech. I didn't even come up with a speech. I knew what I was going to do...bullshit this speech. "Hey guys...well...Niklas..." I begin, looking at my new cousin in law. "I remember when Christina first told me she knew you...I thought it was a joke...then she told me you two were dating...then it dawned on me that my cousin was being a badass and dating a sweed!"
The whole room begins laughing now as I take a sip of water. The room goes quiet as I begin to talk again. "Well...your my best friend Nik and Christina is more than my cousin...she's my sister, which makes you my brother. OH MY GOD NIK IS MY BROTHER!" Everyone is laughing again and the funny thing is...I'm practically sober. "Nik...you're so good to her and you make her happy...please do that the rest of you're lives."
Everyones clapping now and Jonny stand up. This speech was going to be eventful. Everyone goes quiet and he starts talking. "As I qoute on qoute, 'Yes, I am dating Christina", I personally thought it was a joke that Nik had a girlfriend!" Everyone is laughing at that comment but then he continues to talk. "Christina...your a great person and perfect for Nik. I remember when I first met you you crashed Brents party and I was thinking to myself, damn, Nik is lucky to find someone whos perfect for him. Take care of my buddy, okay?"
And that was that. Dinner came about and then the MC called Nik and Christina to the dance floor. The song If I Die Tomorrow by Motley Crue goes off and they begin dancing. I'm keeping my distance from Jonny but as the song goes off the MC calls the bridal party to come and dance. Bruce Springsteens Dancing in the Dark and were all dancing. It's the first time Jonnys hands are in mine since the break up. He's looking at me now, I'm looking back. I let go. "I'll be back," I say as I run away.
I'm running outside on the deck that the Drake has set out by their banquet hall. I'm not wearing a jacket and to be honest, it doesn't phase me that it's below zero out. I gripping on the railing of the deck and notice that I'm the only person out here right now. I'm looking at the city and the cars go by. I missed Jonny, I loved Jonny, I hated Jonny, it was like a whole fucken rollercoaster.
"You do know it's below zero out here, right?"
I turn around and cross my arms but look at the ground. It's Jonny. I then look up and see him coming toward me. This was just great. I turn back to look at the cars go by but he doesn't stand next to me. "Why are you even out here anyways?" He asks me.
"I needed air."
"Uh huh. Look, I'm going to ask you one final time but that's it."
"Ask me what?" I ask him, turning around.
"Do you still love me? Ella, I need to know."
I don't say anything. It's like my voice box was cut out of my throat and I couldn't talk. I went completely mute. He's shaking his head now and I'm looking at the ground. "Ella, I'm done chasing after you. I'm done waiting around thinking your going to come back to me."
He's walking away now. I'm watching him walk out of my life. I knew that if he did, I'd never get him back to call him my own. I needed to fix this. "JONATHAN!" I yell, running after him in heels. "SHIT!" I yell.
I feel myself hit the ice. I feel the sting in my arm as I winced in pain. "Ella, are you alright?" Jonny asks me as he knees down to me. I'm realizing that I'm now cold and my shoes were broken. Jonny takes them off for me and the looks at my arm. "You got lucky, it's not broken." And that's when the words came out of my mouth.
"I still love you Jonny."
He's looking at me now. I'm looking back. I can't believe those fucken words came out of my mouth. "What did you just say?" He asks me. I'm mute again. I look at the ice and a tear rolls down my cheek.
"I still love you idiot."
Jonny helps me up and we're looking at each other eye to eye. It was at that moment he leaned in and caressed his lips on mine. I kiss him back and then he pulls away. "What made you change your mind?" I ask him. He then pulls his jacket off and slips it around me.
"I still care about you, I made a mistake, we all make mistakes."
"Thank you for coming back," I smile.
"Thank you for letting me. Now let's get inside, okay?"
He grabs my shoes and walks back inside with me, hand in hand. He drops my shoes off at a random chair and we go to the dance floor. I wrap my arms around his neck and his hands are on my waist. It was then I rested my head on his chest and I felt his chin rest on top of my head. I was at ease. I had him back. Nothing was going to come in the way of him and I.
And I meant nothing.
I had the whole world in the palm of my hand.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Wedding Day;;Nik;;63 Pt 2
"Oh my God..."
"She looks great Nik."
"She's beautiful..."
I tell Jonny as we all watch everyone stand to watch Christina walk down the aisle with her dad. She stops and her dad lifts the vail. I see her mouth "I love you dad" and kiss her dads cheek. Ella comes and grabs her bouquet and helps her up on a step. Christina is standing across from me now and I'm almost positive a little tear is rolling down my cheek. The priest begins to talk then.
"We are gathered here today to witness the the wedding of this lovely couple. Niklas Hjalmarsson and Christina Helena Dimitris," he begins as I see Stephanie wink at someone. At first, I don't know who she is winking too but I hear someone laugh alittle. It's Brent. I knew they were up to something, and they were going to be dead where they were standing. "If anyone does not agree with this marriage, speak now--"
"I OBJECT!" Stephanie and Brent yell.
"Or forever hold your piece."
I'm looking at Stephanie now, and she's laughing in hysterics with Brent. "Sorry, we had to bring some amusement," she says through laughter as Christina is laughing now. "Nik, it's all out of love," Brent tells me as I turn and give him the death glare.
"Continue with the wedding," Brent tells the priest.
"I shall...this couple, will be blessed by the holy water, this couple will now share their vows. Niklas, do you take Christina to be your wife, to love and to hold, to be there when times get rough, in sickness and health, until death do you part?"
"I do," I flat out say.
"Christina, do you take Niklas to be your husband, to love and to hold, to be there when times get rough, in sickness and health, til death do you part?"
"I do," she smiles.
"Boy, bring the rings please. Nik, repeat after me, I Niklas Hjalmarsson."
"I Niklas Hjalmarsson.."
"Take Christina Helena Dimitris to be my wife."
"Take Christina Helena Dimitris to be my wife."
"I promise I will be there for her."
"I promise I will be there for her."
"When the times get rough."
"When the times get rough."
"And I will always love you, no matter how hard times get."
"And I will always love you, no matter how hard times get."
"With this ring, I'll show you my never ending love for you."
"With this ring, I'll show my never ending love for you."
I slip the ring on and Christina is bassically repeating everything I just said. I watch her slip the ring on my finger as the priest clears his thoart. "Is there anyone who has anything to say before we move on? This is an interesting group here in this church?"
"BRENT! YOU BETTER TAKE ME DOWN TO THE LITTLE WHITE CHURCH SOON!" Ally yelled.
"Well..with no further instructions, it is my duty to say these words...you may now kiss the bride."
I place my hands on Christinas cheeks and we take our first as a married couple. The music plays again and she grabs here bouquet from Ella. We then exit the church but then take wedding photos with everyone in the church and such. I look over at Christina, whos beaming at me. Then I make my eyes turn to Jonny and Ella, who are putting fake smiles on for the camera. Jonny winks at me and Christina. I shake my head.
This was going to be a long, interesting night.
part three will be longer. sorry its taking me so long to update, schools been sucking the life out of me
"She looks great Nik."
"She's beautiful..."
I tell Jonny as we all watch everyone stand to watch Christina walk down the aisle with her dad. She stops and her dad lifts the vail. I see her mouth "I love you dad" and kiss her dads cheek. Ella comes and grabs her bouquet and helps her up on a step. Christina is standing across from me now and I'm almost positive a little tear is rolling down my cheek. The priest begins to talk then.
"We are gathered here today to witness the the wedding of this lovely couple. Niklas Hjalmarsson and Christina Helena Dimitris," he begins as I see Stephanie wink at someone. At first, I don't know who she is winking too but I hear someone laugh alittle. It's Brent. I knew they were up to something, and they were going to be dead where they were standing. "If anyone does not agree with this marriage, speak now--"
"I OBJECT!" Stephanie and Brent yell.
"Or forever hold your piece."
I'm looking at Stephanie now, and she's laughing in hysterics with Brent. "Sorry, we had to bring some amusement," she says through laughter as Christina is laughing now. "Nik, it's all out of love," Brent tells me as I turn and give him the death glare.
"Continue with the wedding," Brent tells the priest.
"I shall...this couple, will be blessed by the holy water, this couple will now share their vows. Niklas, do you take Christina to be your wife, to love and to hold, to be there when times get rough, in sickness and health, until death do you part?"
"I do," I flat out say.
"Christina, do you take Niklas to be your husband, to love and to hold, to be there when times get rough, in sickness and health, til death do you part?"
"I do," she smiles.
"Boy, bring the rings please. Nik, repeat after me, I Niklas Hjalmarsson."
"I Niklas Hjalmarsson.."
"Take Christina Helena Dimitris to be my wife."
"Take Christina Helena Dimitris to be my wife."
"I promise I will be there for her."
"I promise I will be there for her."
"When the times get rough."
"When the times get rough."
"And I will always love you, no matter how hard times get."
"And I will always love you, no matter how hard times get."
"With this ring, I'll show you my never ending love for you."
"With this ring, I'll show my never ending love for you."
I slip the ring on and Christina is bassically repeating everything I just said. I watch her slip the ring on my finger as the priest clears his thoart. "Is there anyone who has anything to say before we move on? This is an interesting group here in this church?"
"BRENT! YOU BETTER TAKE ME DOWN TO THE LITTLE WHITE CHURCH SOON!" Ally yelled.
"Well..with no further instructions, it is my duty to say these words...you may now kiss the bride."
I place my hands on Christinas cheeks and we take our first as a married couple. The music plays again and she grabs here bouquet from Ella. We then exit the church but then take wedding photos with everyone in the church and such. I look over at Christina, whos beaming at me. Then I make my eyes turn to Jonny and Ella, who are putting fake smiles on for the camera. Jonny winks at me and Christina. I shake my head.
This was going to be a long, interesting night.
part three will be longer. sorry its taking me so long to update, schools been sucking the life out of me
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Wedding Day;;Ella;;63 Pt 1
It's six in the morning and all the bridesmaids and moms are gathered in the kitchen of the Dimitri's house. Christina's mom made a coffee run for everyone this morning and now I was sitting with Stephanie and Ally as Christina was getting her hair and make up done at once, while Stephanie was explaining to the hair dresser that she wanted a low bun but high enough so you could see the back of her dress, Ally was getting hair make up done before hair, and I was explaining to the hair dresser that I just wanted a simple bun with my bangs out and swept to the side. She then asked for a picture of the man I was standing up with so I showed her Jonny. She shakes her head.
"He's too cute, no bun for you. We do low side pony tail and sidebangs french braid."
She begins braiding my hair and I look at my make up in the mirror. To be quite honest, the red lip stick and the gold eye shadow make me look like a dirty hooker. I look at Ally, who then bursts into laughter. "Shut the hell up, I look like a hooker!" I tell her.
"No, you look like a prostitute Sean Avery would call."
"Oh you suck!"
"Awe you look pretty! You're hair is going to look nice!"
Christina says taking a seat next to me. Her hair is on her half up, half down curly head and she's prancing around in a Juicy Couture jump suit. I then take a sit of my coffee as I see a tear roll down her eye. "Girls...do I look ugly!?" She cries. This is when I knew she was nervous to get married. I pat her knee.
"No Christina, you do not look ugly."
"Going to the chapel and your...gonna get marrried!" Stephanie begins to sing.
"Goin' to the chapel and your...gonna get married!" Ally joins!
"Gee, Nik really loves you and you're gonna get married...goin' to the chapel of love!" Stephanie and Ally sing in unison.
"Guys, this isn't father of the bride!" I yell but then join in on the singing as she curls my hair with a curling iron. "No, but you look very beautiful."
"Are you and Jonny going to get back together sometime tonight?"
Did she really have to ask this? Everyone turns to stare at me now. I roll my eyes. Who knows what would happen tonight. Maybe we would, maybe we won't. As of right now, it was time to admit that I still loved him. "I don't know guys, I do love him, I'll give you that."
"Trust us Ella, we know!"
"Guys...will Nik think I look pretty?"
We all turn to see Christina in her wedding dress. She chose a princess ball gown that originally had off the shoulder straps but had the straps removed to make the dress strapless. She looked amazing. I put the vail over her face and smiled as I gave her a hug. "Nik is gonna want to rip that off you in the church," I whisper as she hits my back.
"You dirty free for all," she laughs as I put my dress on. It's a red Marilyn Monroe style dress. Ally's is strapless and Stephanie has a halter style of the dress on. I look at myself in the mirror as I yell, "LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD!"
We all pile into the limo around 8:40 a.m. and start pouring glasses of sparkling champagne. I take a sip of mine as I look out the window. It's Christmas Eve, normally, I'd be sleeping or helping my parents wrap last minute gifts like I did last Christmas. Nope, this year, I was drinking champagne at almost 9 in the morning getting ready for my cousins wedding.
It's 9:40 a.m. and we pull up to St. Mary of the Wood's church in Edgebrook. Christina and her mom go into the fitting room and do final adjustments as people pile in. The ceremony starts at 10 but we had to be lined up by 9:55 and Nik and his mom would walk out at exactly ten. We all sat in the fitting room and before we knew it, it was 9:55.
I walked out and saw Johnny talking to Brent, Sharpie, Patrick, and Nik. He stopped talking and looked at me. I looked at him as Patrick whispered something to him. I walked up to him and fixed his flower on his tuxedo jacket as the boys went to their spots in line. "You look beautiful Ella," he smiled as I smiled back.
"Thanks, you don't look so bad yourself."
"Do you think we can talk later?"
"I'll think about it okay?"
"I can live with that."
It's 10 A.M. now and the door opens as typical wedding music begins to play as Nik and his mom walk out. Next were Alfonso and Kailee, then Olympia and Nat, then Stephanie and Kanner, Ally and Brent, Sharpie and Ashlynn, Nico and Allah for the flower girl and ringer bearer. Jonny looked at me and smiled. "Ready?" He asked me. I locked arms with him and smiled back. We walked down the aisle as oh's and ah's went off as the doors in back of me closed. I missed this so much, I knew what I had to do tonight.
Jonny and I went our separate ways of the church and I winked at Nik, a good luck wink that was. The doors swung open again as everyone stood and here comes the bride began playing. The smile on Niks face grew big. I knew he was happy...
but where was my happy ending?
"He's too cute, no bun for you. We do low side pony tail and sidebangs french braid."
She begins braiding my hair and I look at my make up in the mirror. To be quite honest, the red lip stick and the gold eye shadow make me look like a dirty hooker. I look at Ally, who then bursts into laughter. "Shut the hell up, I look like a hooker!" I tell her.
"No, you look like a prostitute Sean Avery would call."
"Oh you suck!"
"Awe you look pretty! You're hair is going to look nice!"
Christina says taking a seat next to me. Her hair is on her half up, half down curly head and she's prancing around in a Juicy Couture jump suit. I then take a sit of my coffee as I see a tear roll down her eye. "Girls...do I look ugly!?" She cries. This is when I knew she was nervous to get married. I pat her knee.
"No Christina, you do not look ugly."
"Going to the chapel and your...gonna get marrried!" Stephanie begins to sing.
"Goin' to the chapel and your...gonna get married!" Ally joins!
"Gee, Nik really loves you and you're gonna get married...goin' to the chapel of love!" Stephanie and Ally sing in unison.
"Guys, this isn't father of the bride!" I yell but then join in on the singing as she curls my hair with a curling iron. "No, but you look very beautiful."
"Are you and Jonny going to get back together sometime tonight?"
Did she really have to ask this? Everyone turns to stare at me now. I roll my eyes. Who knows what would happen tonight. Maybe we would, maybe we won't. As of right now, it was time to admit that I still loved him. "I don't know guys, I do love him, I'll give you that."
"Trust us Ella, we know!"
"Guys...will Nik think I look pretty?"
We all turn to see Christina in her wedding dress. She chose a princess ball gown that originally had off the shoulder straps but had the straps removed to make the dress strapless. She looked amazing. I put the vail over her face and smiled as I gave her a hug. "Nik is gonna want to rip that off you in the church," I whisper as she hits my back.
"You dirty free for all," she laughs as I put my dress on. It's a red Marilyn Monroe style dress. Ally's is strapless and Stephanie has a halter style of the dress on. I look at myself in the mirror as I yell, "LETS GET THIS SHOW ON THE ROAD!"
We all pile into the limo around 8:40 a.m. and start pouring glasses of sparkling champagne. I take a sip of mine as I look out the window. It's Christmas Eve, normally, I'd be sleeping or helping my parents wrap last minute gifts like I did last Christmas. Nope, this year, I was drinking champagne at almost 9 in the morning getting ready for my cousins wedding.
It's 9:40 a.m. and we pull up to St. Mary of the Wood's church in Edgebrook. Christina and her mom go into the fitting room and do final adjustments as people pile in. The ceremony starts at 10 but we had to be lined up by 9:55 and Nik and his mom would walk out at exactly ten. We all sat in the fitting room and before we knew it, it was 9:55.
I walked out and saw Johnny talking to Brent, Sharpie, Patrick, and Nik. He stopped talking and looked at me. I looked at him as Patrick whispered something to him. I walked up to him and fixed his flower on his tuxedo jacket as the boys went to their spots in line. "You look beautiful Ella," he smiled as I smiled back.
"Thanks, you don't look so bad yourself."
"Do you think we can talk later?"
"I'll think about it okay?"
"I can live with that."
It's 10 A.M. now and the door opens as typical wedding music begins to play as Nik and his mom walk out. Next were Alfonso and Kailee, then Olympia and Nat, then Stephanie and Kanner, Ally and Brent, Sharpie and Ashlynn, Nico and Allah for the flower girl and ringer bearer. Jonny looked at me and smiled. "Ready?" He asked me. I locked arms with him and smiled back. We walked down the aisle as oh's and ah's went off as the doors in back of me closed. I missed this so much, I knew what I had to do tonight.
Jonny and I went our separate ways of the church and I winked at Nik, a good luck wink that was. The doors swung open again as everyone stood and here comes the bride began playing. The smile on Niks face grew big. I knew he was happy...
but where was my happy ending?
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Rehearsal Dinner;;Ella/Jonny;;62
It was December 23 and everyone was in full panic mode. Ally and I ended up buying a condo by school due to the landlords of our old apartment getting into a fight with our insurance agents. The boys were on top of their game, Stephanie had a "hot after pregnancy" body, and Christinas wedding was tomorrow. We were all running around the week before making sure tuxes and dresses still fit, getting our nails done, booking make up and hair stylists, all the fun stuff.
Stephanies daughter was getting bigger now but was not going to be in attendance to the wedding, so Stephanies Aunt said she'd watch her. The line up for the wedding party was interesting. It consisted of:
Niks little neice Allah and Christinas cousin Nico for the flower girl and ring bear
Alfonso and Niks cousin Kailee
Olympia and Niks brother Nat
Stephanie and Kanner
Sharpie and Ashlynn
Ally and Brent
Jonathan and I
I walk into the church for the rehersal. I take a seat in a pew next to Sharpie and Ashlynn. Ally and Brent join us along with Alfonso, who's sitting on Brent's lap. I really wish he'd get tall, he took after my mom for that. I look up and see Jonathan walk in. I turn away as he sees me. Patrick hits me on the head. "Stop being such a baby Ella," he tells me.
"I'm trying," I say as the rehearsal coordinator walks in with Nik and Christina.
"Alright, everyone in the back, were gonna start this with the groom and his mom then youngest to the oldest, then the flower girl and ring bearter, then the bride and her father. Questions? Lets go!"
We all line up the way she tells us. Nik and his mom go first then everyone else goes. It's mine and Jonny's turn. We walk down without holding hands. This makes the coordinator mad. "STOP STOP STOP! You two look like you hate each other, now link arms!" She yells.
"If you only knew," I murmur linking arms with Jonathan.
I miss this.
My uncle is walking Christina down the isle now. She looks emotionally drained from all the stress of the week before the wedding. The coordinator then goes through what Christina and Nik have to do. We then finish and we all head over to Biaggis Italian Bistro for the rehersal dinner. I walk in with Alfonso and my dad sits with Alfonso, Sharpie, Ashlynn, Brent, Ally, Stephanie, Kanner, and myself. My Thea Helen stands up as a screen comes up. She clings her glass with a spoon.
"Well...with the help of everyone, we've put together this video in honnor of Nik and Christina, so enjoy!"
The video starts out with Christina's baby picture of her and my The Helen. It then rolls to a picture from when Christina and I were two and playing dolls. Then it showed preschool when we made friends with Ally. Then grade school, then a picture at her birthday party of her, Ally, Jon, and I.
I did NOT want to see that.
It keeps going to pictures of us in jr. high, then of her in high school, then pictures of her, Ally, Stephanie, and I in high school. Then her and I when we graduated high school, a picture of her and I drunk at University of Illinois, then it moved on to pictures of Nik from when he was a baby to now. It then it went to pictures of her and Nik together with us all. It showed one of me on Niks back during the Olympic Break when I wasn't moping around about Kris or Jonny where he's sticking his tounge out at the camera and I look terrified in the picture. It then came to one of Christina and I during the Olympics where were hugging and Nik joins the hug. Then it came up.
A picture of Jonny and I kissing with Nik jumping on Johnny with a hockey stick and Christina trying to get in the middle before I left for Italy with the song Wonderwall playing. I was about to lose it but contained myself.
I watch Jonny get up as Nik follows him. Nik stops him and their arguing about something. They then turn to look at me and I see a tear roll down his face. Nik hits Jonny and tells him something as Jonny walks away. If Jonny only knew how the hell I still felt...
--Jonny---
"YOU CANT RUN FROM THIS FOREVER!"
Nik whispers to me as he grabs my arm. I turn to look at him and shake my head. I am by far the biggest dick to ever walk the face of the earth and the pictures that came up proved it. "Nik, I can't get her back, I need to let it go already. We all do," I tell him.
"Stop saying that you dumbshit. She loves you, you love her. We all see it," he tells me.
"I'll never win her back."
"Never say never Jonny."
Were both looking at Ella now and it's then I realize I'm balling my eyes out. I quickly look away as Nik hits me on the head. I begin to walk away as I hear Nik say to me, "Win her back before someone beats you to it." I drive back to my condo and lie in my bed, hoping to God that she'd take me back before it was too late.
Stephanies daughter was getting bigger now but was not going to be in attendance to the wedding, so Stephanies Aunt said she'd watch her. The line up for the wedding party was interesting. It consisted of:
Niks little neice Allah and Christinas cousin Nico for the flower girl and ring bear
Alfonso and Niks cousin Kailee
Olympia and Niks brother Nat
Stephanie and Kanner
Sharpie and Ashlynn
Ally and Brent
Jonathan and I
I walk into the church for the rehersal. I take a seat in a pew next to Sharpie and Ashlynn. Ally and Brent join us along with Alfonso, who's sitting on Brent's lap. I really wish he'd get tall, he took after my mom for that. I look up and see Jonathan walk in. I turn away as he sees me. Patrick hits me on the head. "Stop being such a baby Ella," he tells me.
"I'm trying," I say as the rehearsal coordinator walks in with Nik and Christina.
"Alright, everyone in the back, were gonna start this with the groom and his mom then youngest to the oldest, then the flower girl and ring bearter, then the bride and her father. Questions? Lets go!"
We all line up the way she tells us. Nik and his mom go first then everyone else goes. It's mine and Jonny's turn. We walk down without holding hands. This makes the coordinator mad. "STOP STOP STOP! You two look like you hate each other, now link arms!" She yells.
"If you only knew," I murmur linking arms with Jonathan.
I miss this.
My uncle is walking Christina down the isle now. She looks emotionally drained from all the stress of the week before the wedding. The coordinator then goes through what Christina and Nik have to do. We then finish and we all head over to Biaggis Italian Bistro for the rehersal dinner. I walk in with Alfonso and my dad sits with Alfonso, Sharpie, Ashlynn, Brent, Ally, Stephanie, Kanner, and myself. My Thea Helen stands up as a screen comes up. She clings her glass with a spoon.
"Well...with the help of everyone, we've put together this video in honnor of Nik and Christina, so enjoy!"
The video starts out with Christina's baby picture of her and my The Helen. It then rolls to a picture from when Christina and I were two and playing dolls. Then it showed preschool when we made friends with Ally. Then grade school, then a picture at her birthday party of her, Ally, Jon, and I.
I did NOT want to see that.
It keeps going to pictures of us in jr. high, then of her in high school, then pictures of her, Ally, Stephanie, and I in high school. Then her and I when we graduated high school, a picture of her and I drunk at University of Illinois, then it moved on to pictures of Nik from when he was a baby to now. It then it went to pictures of her and Nik together with us all. It showed one of me on Niks back during the Olympic Break when I wasn't moping around about Kris or Jonny where he's sticking his tounge out at the camera and I look terrified in the picture. It then came to one of Christina and I during the Olympics where were hugging and Nik joins the hug. Then it came up.
A picture of Jonny and I kissing with Nik jumping on Johnny with a hockey stick and Christina trying to get in the middle before I left for Italy with the song Wonderwall playing. I was about to lose it but contained myself.
I watch Jonny get up as Nik follows him. Nik stops him and their arguing about something. They then turn to look at me and I see a tear roll down his face. Nik hits Jonny and tells him something as Jonny walks away. If Jonny only knew how the hell I still felt...
--Jonny---
"YOU CANT RUN FROM THIS FOREVER!"
Nik whispers to me as he grabs my arm. I turn to look at him and shake my head. I am by far the biggest dick to ever walk the face of the earth and the pictures that came up proved it. "Nik, I can't get her back, I need to let it go already. We all do," I tell him.
"Stop saying that you dumbshit. She loves you, you love her. We all see it," he tells me.
"I'll never win her back."
"Never say never Jonny."
Were both looking at Ella now and it's then I realize I'm balling my eyes out. I quickly look away as Nik hits me on the head. I begin to walk away as I hear Nik say to me, "Win her back before someone beats you to it." I drive back to my condo and lie in my bed, hoping to God that she'd take me back before it was too late.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Sophia Lauren Kane;;Ella/Patrick;;61
Saturday October 9, 2010
Blackhawks vs Red Wings
United Center. Chicago, IL
I walk into the locker room with an eight month pregnant Stephanie. The doctor said that she was doing excellent and that the baby was in healthy condition. Quenville called up an extra player incase Stephanie was going to go into labor sometime soon so Patrick could go to the hospital. It was the first home game and we were playing Detroit. I walk over to Kanner with her and sit next to Patrick Sharp. "How are you feeling today?" he asks me as his wife sits next me.
"Just fucken peachy," I murmur. "Please kick some ass tonight."
"Just for you and everyone else."
"Girls we should get to our seats."
We watch the team walk out for warm up. Jonnys the last one out. I grab his arm as the girls leave too. He turns to look at me. A small smile forms to his face as I kiss his cheek. "Good luck," I say as his gives me a tiny hug. "Friends again?" I ask him.
"Definatly," he smiles as he walks away.
The third period is under way. We're leading 2-1 with two goals in the second by Nik and Patrick Sharp. I'm more worried about Stephanie than the game. A weird look forms to her face as she excuses herself to go to the bathroom. Ally looks at her. "Did you wet your pants and why are you....OH MY GOD YOUR WATER BROKE!" Ally yells really loud. I shoot up with Christina as Stephanie grabs her stomach. "ARE YOU OKAY!?" Allys yelling.
"CONTRACTIONS!" She yells as I time the contraction.
"Ten seconds," I tell them, throwing my car keys. "GET HER TO THE HOSPITAL!"
"What about you!?" Christina yells at me.
"I'm gonna get Patrick off the ice! Go!"
I run down to the glass and begin banging on the glass. People were looking as a ref saw me banging on the glass. "STOP THE GAME! STOP THE GAME!" I'm yelling but hes shaking his head no. Was he really going to start this with me? "STOP THE DAMN GAME!" That's when Duncan saw me banging on the glass. He knew what was up. He then pulled a hook on a Red Wing and a time out was called. Kanner saw me yelling, along with Coach Quenville.
"Kanner go change! You're daughters going to be born tonight. Ella, go to the locker room!"
LOYOLA MEDIAL CENTER
MAYWOOD, ILLINOIS
"LETS ALL CONGRATULATE PATRICK KANE, AS HE BECOMES A FATHER TONIGHT!" Our announcer yells as I run to the locker room behind Kanner. We hear the cheers and stomping as he throws his stuff in his bag. He then begins to put his clothes on. I look at him weirdly. He looks at me back. "Dude, are you not going to shower?" I ask him.
"It's either shower and miss my daughter make her entrance to the world, or not shower and see my daughter for the first time. I chose to have her first meet me while I'm drenched in swet."
"Fair enough lets go."
Patrick speeds to Loyola Medical center and we run into the room. Ally and Christina are telling Stephanie to breathe while we run in there. "The whole team is on their way, we won," Kanner tells the two as they wait for them in the waiting room. Patrick grabs her hand as she feels another contraction. A Doctor comes in. "You must be Patrick. I'm Doctor Hillis, I'll be delivering your baby tonight. Stephanie you're ready for an epidural," she tells Stephanie.
I excuse myself and go to the waiting room to see the whole team and their wives and girlfriends there. Troy is the first to speak. "How is she?" He asks me as I tell them she needs an epidural. I excuse myself and decide to go get a coffee. I push the elevator door but it doesn't close. Jonny sneaks his way through. This was going to be loads of fun. The elevator door closes and I don't say anything to Jonny. "You okay?" he asks me.
"I suppose," I reply.
"Liar. You know, your a terrible liar Ella."
The door opens and I walk into the cafe with him stomping behind me. I had a feeling I wasn't going to be getting my coffee. "Ella, you can't avoid me forever," he yells. I stop walking and turn to face him. Did he really have the nerve to say that to me?
"I understand we are bonded forever because of this child, but we are not getting back together."
"I love you Ella, why can't you accept it?"
"I cannot love you Jon?"
"And why not?"
"Because I can't okay!"
"And were back to round three..."
My phone goes off its. Kanner texted me. I look at Jon. I knew for a fact coffee wasn't an option now. "Elevator now," I snap at Jon as he follows me.
"Why?"
To: Ella cell
Come up to room 213 on the second floor. Your god daughter is going to want to meet you now.
--Patrick--
We hold off on the pushing as we wait for Ella and Jonny to get their asses down to the room. I look at Stephanie, who's hand I grab as they position her to get ready to push. I look at her and a tear rolls down my cheeck. "Baby why are you crying?" she asks me as I kiss her lips.
"I'm happy, that's all."
"Alright lets start the pushing," I hear Ella say.
"Alright Stephanie push!" The doctor says as Stephanie's face turns purple. She's pushing hard but Doctor Hillis tells her to stop. She catches her breath. I look at Jonny as I catch him grab Ella's hand. Her facial expression doesn't change but I can tell she's half mad half not mad. "Alright Stephanie push," the Doctor tells her again as she counts to ten. Stephanie stops after ten and breathes.
"You're doing great baby you can do it," I tell her as she squeezes my hand.
"Steph, if you push really hard, we can get the baby out on the next push okay? Now push."
We're all cheering for Steph as she's turning purple again. I then hear it, the prettiest sound ever. A baby cry. The doctor holds the baby and has me cut the ambilicol chord. She then takes the baby and checks on it and wraps the baby up. "Meet you're daughter," she says, handing her to Stephanie. Stephanie's looking at her as I sit on the bed next to her. My daughter is the spitting image of Stephanie. I look at Stephanie now as she says to me, "Pick a name Patrick." I look at the baby and a smile comes to my face as the following words come out as I take my baby,
"Hi Sophia Lauren Kane, I'm you're daddy. I've waited nine long months to meet you, and now you're here! I know I just met you but I know I love you so so much."
And then, I kiss her forhead and then Stephanies forehead. We were a family now, we were a family. Sophia made us stronger. "I love you both. We're a family now, and damn, am I happy about that!"
Monday, September 6, 2010
How Much Longer Can I Hold On;;Stephanie/Patrick/Ella/Jonny;;60
--Stephanie---
I'm in the waiting room of the doctors office with Sidney and Patrick. I'm watching the two guys stare each other down as I'm looking through my phone. I just want this to be done and over with. The door swings ooen and a doctor is standing there. "Stephanie, Sidney, and Patrick," she says as we follow her into a room.
I sit on the counter as Patrick and Sidney give eachother the glare. I've had it now. "Okay, the two of you, this is obnoxious, please stop," I ask them but Patrick keeps staring at him. The doctor luckily comes in as Patrick flicks Sidney off as I throw my shoe at Patrick. "Was that necessary?" I ask him. The doctor looks at the three of us. "Ms. Pratt, are you carrying these gentlemans baby?" He asks.
"Oh God no!" Sidney says.
"Do you really think that I'm gay and even if I were, do you REALLY think I'd be gay with this bitch?"
"Alright, I see we don't know who the father is?" he asks as we nodd. "Stephanie, your gonna pee in the cup first," he says, handing me a cup.
"That's really we're going to solve this, peeing in a cup!?" Patrick says as I walk into the bathroom, leaving dumb and dumber by themselves while praying to God they don't break anything, let alone kill each other.
--Patrick--
"Do you guys have a name picked up?"
Sidney asks me as I'm stairing at the wall, avoiding his eyes. I don't say anything but I do catch him standing there with his arms across his chest. For some God damn reason, I feel like Ella and him would work out perfectly, only because Ella has her tendency's of being a bitch at times. "No, we don't. I really don't feel like making small talk."
"I'm just trying to be nice. Look, I think we both have been acting like total dumb asses."
"Patrick, your turn," the doctor says, handing me a cup.
I walk into the bathroom and close the door. If I knew that they were going to make me do a piss test, I would've drank a crapton of water. I eventually piss and go back into the doctors office. Sidney takes his test and we wait upon the results. I'm looking at Stephanie now and I say to her, "Baby, whatever happens, we're gonna raise this family normally." The doctor comes in and closes the door. We all look at him as I ask him what the results where.
"Patrick...you are the father."
Stephanie begins to cry of happiness as I send out mass text messages. Sidney congratulates me and we head off. We're in the car now as Ally says were having a celebration dinner at Gino's East. I'm at a red light now and I look at Stephanie as she asks the one question I could've sworn was a joke at first. "Do you think we could ask Ella and Johnny to be the god parents of the baby?"
"You're serious?"
"Yes, only because there the mature ones of the group."
"I don't think that's going to go well between the two, but we can try."
"Okay," she says with a smile as I pull into Gino's East, waiting for the fireworks between Jon and Ella to ignite...
--Ella---
I walk into the private party room at Gino's to see the whole team there and the only seat available is across from Jon. He called me after he got out of the hospital to say thank you, but we didn't really talk after that. I take the seat, which is next to Sharpie and Troy, and say hi to everyone. Patrick stands up and clings his glass. We're all looking at him now. "Ella, it's nice of you to finally show up," he jokes.
"Cute Kanner," I joke back.
"Well...so I'm the father..and on behalf of Stephanie and I...Ella and Jonny, we have a serious question for you two..."
I didn't like where the hell this was going. I don't look at Jonny, but I feel his stare. This was not going to go well. "Ella and Jonny, will you two be the godparents of our child?" I'm now looking at Jonny, this was not what I was expecting. Jonny looks at me, we both don't know what to say. Jonny speaks for me though. "We'll do it." he says. Now I'm speechless. I excuse myself and walk outside. I feel someone follow me as the doors swing open.
--Jonny--
"Ella!"
She's turned around, looking at me now. She looks aggravated. I bassically agreed for her to be the god mother of Patrick and Stephanies child. "What Jonny? You think that'll save us, by agreeing to that!?" She yells at me. I shake my head. We are back to where we were last year, except we're both lonely.
"Ella, I just want to be friends okay?"
"Jonny, I told you, there is no more you and I...and...and you go agree to that!"
"Ella, I know there is no you and I anymore, we can be friends and still be the god parents."
"Jonathan, if something happens to them, the child is our responsibility. Look at us, look--"
"Ella, I love you."
"I cannot love you."
"And we're back to round two."
"Round two?"
"You couldn't love me apparently this time last year."
"I had Kris last year."
"Do you have him now? Do you have anyone? No. Ella, I don't know how much longer I can hold on."
"I will be the godmother of this child and stand up with you in the wedding, but that's it Jon."
I watch her walk into the restaurant and I sit on the bench, running my hand through my hair. This wasn't the end for her and I. This baby and the wedding were going to bring us together again, I know it would. I finally walk back in and take my seat, looking at her. "Why'd you save my life?" I ask aloud. The whole table looks at us now. She doesn't say anything. "God damnit Ella, why did you save my life?"
"You saved me three times. You didn't let my ass get raped, you didn't leave me on the ice to die, and you didn't let me die of brain damage. I wasn't going to let you get burnt to death."
"That's it?"
"You have my back, I have yours. That's what friends are for."
Friends...that's what we are. I sigh and take a sip of my drink and just look at her. "Well Ella, were back to round three...just friends."
And that was that.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I Still Love You;;Ella/Jonny;;59
I'm sitting in the waiting room with Brent, Ally, Alfonso, my Dad, Christina, and Nik. We're waiting for Stephanie and Kanner to get here from one of Stephanies ultrasounds since she's entering her thrid trimester, meaning we get to find out who the father is soon. Alfonso is sleeping on Christina's lap, while my dad is on the phone with the insurance agent, Ally is on the phone with her mom, and Nik and Brent are pacing back and forth while we're waiting for Jonny. I'm sitting there, hoping to God this would all be okay in the end. We see Stephanie and Kanner walk in. Stephanie takes a seat next to me. She's fucken huge now. "Hey how are you feeling?"
"Like crap. how was the ultrasound?"
"Sidney's coming a week from today. We're getting this done and over with then. I can't believe the baby is due in a month."
Her saying that makes me realize its October. She gives me a hug as we see a doctor come out. We all gather around the doctor. "Well...he's going to be okay. Who got him out of the building?" She asks. Everyone is standing behind me now, leaving me face to face with the doctor. "You're lucky to get him out when you did. He only has first degree burns and he's off the tanks."
"Can I see him?"
"He's sleeping but you can come in. Is anyone staying the night thats family?"
"Meaning I can't stay?" I ask.
"Family only."
"His families on their way," Brent tells her.
I follow the doctors directions and land myself in room 1823. I look at Jonny, who has an IV hooked up to him. I look at his flatline monitor to make sure he's still breathing. I pull the chair up next to the bed and see the ash is still on his face. "Hi Jonny," is all I get out. I can't stand to see him like this. "The doctors said I got you out in time. I'm sorry for everything I've ever said to you before all of this," I begin while the waterworks begin. "I want you to know that I want you in my life still, as a friend."
Why can't I just tell him I still love him?
"Jonny, pull through for me, please?" I begin as I hold my hand to my face and wipe away the tears. This was too much for me. I didn't know how I didn't break down yet. "Jonny, if I could, I'd pull down the moon for you, and go back to when you first told me you loved me..." I'm now crying like a five year old as someone's hand is on me. I look up and see my dad. I wipe away the tears.
"Visiting hours are up. Jonny should be out in a few days. Stay by me tonight okay?" I nodd at my dad and kiss Jonnys forehead. "I still love you Jonny," I whisper in his ear. I knew he couldn't hear a fucken word I said, but I had to get it off my chest.. I buckle my seatbelt up as my dad tells us we're going to get burgers. I don't each much, I have no feeling for food. I feel numb, I feel lost. My dad looks at me and finally says, "You still love him, don't you?"
"More than anything dad."
--Jonny---
"Jonny, Jonny are you up?"
"Mom?"
I open my eyes to see my mom, dad, and brother in a hospital room. My dad is talking to a doctor and my mom is hugging me. "Oh, thank God you're okay!" My mom exclaims. I hug her back, but I have no idea what the hell happened.
"Good to see your up. You should be out of here in two days."
"What happened?"
"Ella and Ally's apartment caught on fire. You were knocked out. Ella saved your life."
"What?"
Did I hear correctly that Ella saved my life? I rub my head and notice the burn scars on my arm. I'm now kind of remembering tripping over a chair as I was trying to make my escape out of the apartment. I remember everything going black. The doctor steps out in the hallway with my dad and brother, leaving my mom and I alone. "Ella is such a lovely girl, you're lucky to have her as a friend."
"Our friendship is fucked up right now because of me."
"Jon, you love her still?"
"I fucked up mom, what do you think?"
"Win her back."
"Not right now, she's going through a lot. Her mom just died. I should just leave her alone."
"Jonny, it'll be okay with you two."
"Mom..."
"I found this in your apartment."
She hands me a picture of Ella and I when we were in the city one day before the Stanley Cup finals. She's standing infront of me, and my arms are across her chest and she's holding my arms tight. I feel a tear roll down my face as my mom puts the picture on my nightstand. "Mom, I can't win her back right now."
"She'll wait for you Jonny. Now you need to sleep."
And at this rate, I hope she was right. I shut my eyes. I hope everything would be okay again. It was going to be a long few months but I knew what I had to do. I had to win Ella back...
If it were the last thing I'd do.
"Like crap. how was the ultrasound?"
"Sidney's coming a week from today. We're getting this done and over with then. I can't believe the baby is due in a month."
Her saying that makes me realize its October. She gives me a hug as we see a doctor come out. We all gather around the doctor. "Well...he's going to be okay. Who got him out of the building?" She asks. Everyone is standing behind me now, leaving me face to face with the doctor. "You're lucky to get him out when you did. He only has first degree burns and he's off the tanks."
"Can I see him?"
"He's sleeping but you can come in. Is anyone staying the night thats family?"
"Meaning I can't stay?" I ask.
"Family only."
"His families on their way," Brent tells her.
I follow the doctors directions and land myself in room 1823. I look at Jonny, who has an IV hooked up to him. I look at his flatline monitor to make sure he's still breathing. I pull the chair up next to the bed and see the ash is still on his face. "Hi Jonny," is all I get out. I can't stand to see him like this. "The doctors said I got you out in time. I'm sorry for everything I've ever said to you before all of this," I begin while the waterworks begin. "I want you to know that I want you in my life still, as a friend."
Why can't I just tell him I still love him?
"Jonny, pull through for me, please?" I begin as I hold my hand to my face and wipe away the tears. This was too much for me. I didn't know how I didn't break down yet. "Jonny, if I could, I'd pull down the moon for you, and go back to when you first told me you loved me..." I'm now crying like a five year old as someone's hand is on me. I look up and see my dad. I wipe away the tears.
"Visiting hours are up. Jonny should be out in a few days. Stay by me tonight okay?" I nodd at my dad and kiss Jonnys forehead. "I still love you Jonny," I whisper in his ear. I knew he couldn't hear a fucken word I said, but I had to get it off my chest.. I buckle my seatbelt up as my dad tells us we're going to get burgers. I don't each much, I have no feeling for food. I feel numb, I feel lost. My dad looks at me and finally says, "You still love him, don't you?"
"More than anything dad."
--Jonny---
"Jonny, Jonny are you up?"
"Mom?"
I open my eyes to see my mom, dad, and brother in a hospital room. My dad is talking to a doctor and my mom is hugging me. "Oh, thank God you're okay!" My mom exclaims. I hug her back, but I have no idea what the hell happened.
"Good to see your up. You should be out of here in two days."
"What happened?"
"Ella and Ally's apartment caught on fire. You were knocked out. Ella saved your life."
"What?"
Did I hear correctly that Ella saved my life? I rub my head and notice the burn scars on my arm. I'm now kind of remembering tripping over a chair as I was trying to make my escape out of the apartment. I remember everything going black. The doctor steps out in the hallway with my dad and brother, leaving my mom and I alone. "Ella is such a lovely girl, you're lucky to have her as a friend."
"Our friendship is fucked up right now because of me."
"Jon, you love her still?"
"I fucked up mom, what do you think?"
"Win her back."
"Not right now, she's going through a lot. Her mom just died. I should just leave her alone."
"Jonny, it'll be okay with you two."
"Mom..."
"I found this in your apartment."
She hands me a picture of Ella and I when we were in the city one day before the Stanley Cup finals. She's standing infront of me, and my arms are across her chest and she's holding my arms tight. I feel a tear roll down my face as my mom puts the picture on my nightstand. "Mom, I can't win her back right now."
"She'll wait for you Jonny. Now you need to sleep."
And at this rate, I hope she was right. I shut my eyes. I hope everything would be okay again. It was going to be a long few months but I knew what I had to do. I had to win Ella back...
If it were the last thing I'd do.
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