It's friday afternoon. I'm on a skype call with Christina, who is packing to come home for the weekend to see home opener. I'm multitasking typing a paper from my fashion class and talking to her while shes running all over her appartment. She's going on and on about how Brent and Ally want to go clubbing after the game. I hate clubbing. I suggest we go to a hookah bar, but Ally hates the smell. "I mean Ella, I'm sure clubbing won't be that bad. If worse comes to worst, you and Kris can just leave."
"My boyfriends a party animal, remember?" I laugh.
"I'm sure you'll have fun."
"I hate large groups of people packed in one place. Those freak me out but I'll think about it."
"Oh, did you're mom call you?"
"About the party for Olympia's birthday? Yeah, Kris and I are going."
"You're going to introduce him to everyone?" She asked me.
"Last I checked, my parents didn't care who I dated."
"Well..I'm starting to tell the truth about Nik to my mom."
"Oh God here we go," I Joke.
"I told her I've been seeing someone for three months and that his name is Nik."
"Did she ask if he was Greek."
"Nope."
"Alright, who's ready for the blow up at casa di Demitris next Friday?" I joke.
"This really isn't funny Antonella, my mother could break up the relationship."
"No, if she found out she'd flip a shit then make you break up with him."
"Well I'm gonna head over to your place. See you in a couple hours."
"Becareful."
"Will do."
She hangs up and I go back to my paper. I look over to my nightstand to find a picture of Kris and I that week took at Milenium Park. My skype goes off. I look in hopes of it being Kris. It's not. It's Jon. I answer the call and my camera turns on. Jon looks extremely hot right now.
Shit I should not be thinking like this.
"Hey, hows the girlfriend?" I ask.
"What girlfriend?"
"Way to not tell me you're seeing someone."
"Oh her...we're not seeing eachother anymore."
"That was quick."
"It's just not gonna happen."
"Alright," I smile.
"You really should becareful with you're boyfriend."
"I'm a big girl but okay," I joke.
Jons shaking his head at my comment.Either he's being completely serious or he's being a jealous bitch. I look over to the picture of me and Kris and smile. He catches me looking at it. "You really like him don't you?" He asks me. I look back at him and smile. He clearly should know the answer to this. I nodd my head as he sighs. He's crushed. I crushed him. For some odd reason, I'm not feeling any guilt. It's not that I hate him, we're just friends, I wish he can see that. Finally he opens his mouth and says:
"If you only knew how he is..."
"What?"
"If you only knew how I feel.."
"What?"
"Nevermind, I got to go, I'll see you tomorrow."
With that, I shut the laptop off and tell Kris I'm taking a nap. I get under the covers as a knock comes on the door. Ally walks in and sits on my bed with Stephanie sitting on the bench/dresser I have across my be. I look at them. "When's Christina coming?" Ally asks.
"Is this what you came in to ask? I was going to take a nap."
"Not really, but we're just worried for you," Stephanie tells me.
"Why?"
"Brent is too. He says Kris can be quite the party animal when he's trashed," Ally tells me.
"Yeah, and I thought Pat was bad."
"Guys, I know you're worried but I'll be okay."
"He also said Jons been a hot mess lately," Ally tells me.
"Honestly, I think you're making a mistake for being with Kris and not Jon."
"Guys, I appreciate that you're worried and I love you for it, but I'm gonna learn by myself. I talked to Jon, he's fine."
"Alright, if you wanna talk, we're here..." Ally smiles as they leave.
I lay in my bed and look at the ceiling and walls. I know I'm not making a mistake. Then I think about what Jon, Ally, and Stephanie just informed me with. Jon was trying to tell me something but I didn't know what it was. I finally close my eyes. I knew I wasn't making a mistake. I knew it.
My phone goes off. I grab it and it's Jon. I click the envelope and open the text message. I read it and sigh. I don't respond to it. I put the phone back and close my eyes, thinking of the text message. I wish he knew that we were just friends, and that I was happy with Kris, even if he were such a party animal. I finally fall alseep with a smile, but the text message is going through my mind, those words keep showing up over and over:
i never leave the light on much now, i got a feeling that maybe it's time for sleep. I got the cellular phone, whispering i'm alone...
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